in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight." proverbs 3:5-6

It really puzzles me how God will choose to save someone like me. like Israel. Unfaithful, utterly undeserving. Yet He poured out His blood for the sake of such.

And who am I to be able to hear God directly from His word. How could He have come so near without the death and resurrection of Christ? How could I have survived? I would have die in the presence of His holiness...

God in His mercy comforted me.

In the midst of meeting datelines and UROPS pressure, I am almost completely lost and somehow my sense tells me i'm not in the right direction. Crying out to Him and after that know that He already knew my cries and answered them speaks of Ps 23 where my shepherd makes me lie down in green pastures, leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake..

I shall not be in want.

During my QT with God, I was telling God about how terrible a researcher I am when it comes to UROPS.. how clueless I feel cos nobody seems to really care or guide me.. And then I read about Israel worshipping the golden calf while in the wilderness.. And the short write up was on ships and coral reefs! What a coincidence! I was quite stunned for a moment.. Later I thought it really wasnt.

The short story goes like this. While a man sailing in the ship sense that they are in the wrong direction, his instruments say otherwise. And he realised later that they were near the reefs and going too near the shore would crush these reefs and damage the ship. No doubt going near the shore makes the man think that we're safer, at least he see the shore, but he just cannot go near. After which his instruments tell him that they are indeed on the right track when a marker shows up. And God told me to lean not on my own understanding but trust in the LORD with all my heart, in all my ways acknowledge Him, and He will make my paths straight...

Have I fix my eyes too long on the 'suffering' like how the Israelites think that Moses had gone to talk to God for too long.. and they made a calf for themselves to worship.. And God is telling me not to be like them but to trust in Him and acknowledge God. no matter how long it may take. no matter how difficult life seems to get... He will make my paths straight.

After the overview of OT and study on church history, book of Daniel.. I cannot be more impressed with this God whom I call Father. He is powerful and just and loving and determined...He is the Maker of the story call History and He cleverly crafted every single detail. He will continue to mould His people and reveal His story till all people bow down before Him and worship Him. Every tongue, every nation, every race, every tribe.

Lord... it was a great comfort and encouragement and may this post be a blessing to all who read.Repent and know that You are God.

Even before this amazing episode, God has quietly provided for me..

I'm not doing very well but I am happy. My life is simply, at the same time, greatly, provided for

I am not getting the best kind of grades nor am I leading the most luxurious life but I know my Lord Jesus is giving me all I have today.
Simple things like meeting datelines and having something to present in class are all deemed as well planned to me but not by me... ok.. think im confusing everyone.(pardon me cos i was out the whole morning in the hot hot sun..burnt and drained now..nitrogen accumulated from the free dives in the cove... :S)

Basically.. when I finally decided to do/prepare/study my due assignments/preparations for tutorials during the weekends... I find myself able to deliver what was needed that following wk without knowing that I was actually supposed to be doing it....hmm get what I mean...

Paiseh..my language command is pretty limited... like the chinese always say 有限公司.. thats Tingyu for you~ :X

So all in all.. I'm happy. Joy overflow... because of Jesus! :D