had Tj Road run the previous sat.. started out too fast den punctured even before i run out of the school... haha.anwz. got 35th this time.. sad case.. 18:43 for 3.6km. is that fast or slow. sigh

hmm. had our usual 'favourite' pt on wed.. aching til today.. later still got to take strides on the track :X

cant catch up with my work... everything seems to be faling.. but still i woke up this morning feeling really happy :P cos You are with me...

was so tired yesterday that i slept from 6 to 8 n 10pm to 5 this morning. Woke up to prepare BS and trying to fork out some time for God..

I heard the birds this morning.. it was beautiful.. i've never hear the chirpping of the birds in the early morning before.. it was so clear and yah..natural..nth more original than that.. O Lord.. You are wonderful to create such beautiful things... sad that.. man spoiled it.

i feel Your presence whenever i read Your word.. i noe that it's You.. wouldnt doubt. but help me to comprehend your teachings correctly so that i wun hold on to the wrong promises that you never intend to give..

Read his blog again.. all the new blogs seem to tell me that perhaps he's not for me afterall.. someone that perhaps, i wouldnt want to live the rest of my earthly life with....

biathlon's on this sun!! wooo .. hee this week is gonna be a super tiring week.. cos im going to train. well at least try to train. along with my badminton training n tests... n annual road run on sat.. i think im gonna die.. haha.

was alr very tired during lessons, den comes the 2km run.. wasnt that tough cos i was kinda jogging lah.push Clarice on.den came the PT day.. what uncle andrew calls that. the training was like endless.. n we had a 2 hr pt. great ya? quite fun though everyone's tired after the 1st round.. legs felt like jellies lah.

chem test this coming friday.. so many chapters to study and today is alr wed.. how am i going to make it? i wonder. tests tests n more tests.. revision revision n more revision.. I JUST WANT TO GET OVER THIS JC2 QUICKLY!! but of course, put in my best this wonderful year!! bleahz...

im just so exhausted.. whole body aching. dun even feel like doing anything.. just taking some time off to blog.. Zzzz ~tata

typing this for the 2nd time.. com has problem..

wanted to prepare something nice ..real nice for my badminton mortal.. but it turned out to be a failure..alright..yah. spent the whole afternoon doing something to be thrown away after that..:~( wanted to use transparency for the poem..realise wrote sth wrong with permenant marker..yah den gone. got to resort to the conventional way in the end. pen n paper. ok.quite sad case ah. nvm

going to uncle andrew house after training later, dunno how it'll turn out.. feeling half hearted.. maybe im not that close to the badminton girls..though they are fun ppl.. just feel like being with ny parents leh.. har.

training gonna start soon.. starting to feel lazy.. dunno y... just doesnt feel enthu anymore..cos of the many mistakes i make? no i cannot be discouraged.. im going to do my best.. even with my worst form..at least try to glorify my dear Heavenly Father's name!! :D hmm... knock knock..PASSION where are you....

ok.. im quite dreamy..wanna go le..do some work before training starts...

ok.. end up playing badminton with my dad rather den run.. woke up late..haha at 10.. reach bedok res at 11... probably become roast rabbit after the run. lolx..

next sat is TJC annual Road run.. how how. stamina not there yet.. gotta train.but i lazy!! :"X
it's so fun playing with my dad hee..he's quite fun la just that he's rather solemn most of the time..

the cny hol is going to end..sigh din do any work at all.. eat sleep visit watch tv.. that's all i do all day. :"p den i realise all these make me so lethargic..so decided to exercise (":

going to ah ma's house soon.. go there only once a year..den going to river ang bao.. just hope that it wun be too crowded there. shall go n find peihong there n disturb her heh heh..
+evilish smile+

hao le hao le.. gtg byeez

wanted to go for movie today..yesterday too. .but i always end up staying at home.. cos either the person whom im going out with is not free, dun wan to go or basically the tickets are all sold out. den wanna go for a drink..irwin suddenly sick. :X nvm save energy.save money.bleah.

JOVN CALLED TODAY!! she called from UK just to wish me happy cny! my gosh..i was so so so happy.. oh. she's coming back during march.. cant wait to see her n crap with her again though i guess we'll just end up sitting ard n saying nth.. well the presence of each other is enough! cool! n she's gonna stay in singapore for 3 mths when she return during june.. IM 0VERJOYED! yeah yeah!!

another happy incident..wow.. hee Cranberries - "Dream" is superb!! its so nice.. have been looking for this song since young.. love it so much. Love ya xinni!! for putting in the effort :P
here goes the lyrics :

All my life

Is changing every day

In every possible way

In all my dreams

It's never quite as it seems Never quite as it seems

I know I've felt like this before

But now I'm feeling it even more

Because it came from you

Then I open up and see

The person falling here is me

A different way to be

I warn more

Impossible to ignore Impossible to ignore

They'll come true

Impossible not to do Impossible not to do

Now I tell you openly

You have my heart so don't hurt me

You're what I couldn't find

Totally amazing mind

So understanding and so kind

You're everything to me

All my life

Is changing every day

In every possible way

And oh my dreams

It's never quite as it seems

Cause you're a dream to me Dream to me

lyrics cool rite :) like it very much.. at least for the time being hee

Gonna sleep soon.. feel like running tml again... who's running with me..?

新年快乐 to all who's reading my blog!! :P collecting ang baos again so happy hee

既然是华人农历新年，我就以华文写下今天的感受：）
一大早起来跟爸爸妈妈拜年，感觉怪怪的。。哈哈
不知道要写什么了。。要出去拜年了。。。：P

really it's quite difficult to get him off my mind but wel.. im sure i can do it.. perhaps i do like him or rather i just yearn for some brotherly love.. :x he doesnt care i guess...
No.. I have to stop being one of the bees..he's not the honey!

anw..xx

WOw!! God works in an AMAZING WAY!! Praise Him! Peng Yuan accepted CHrist!! ;) cool. never imagine he will. wel.. the impossible to man made possible by God!! isnt that wonderful..

slept at 3am last nite cos talking to gu gu..well it was good.. cos she reminded me again and again that there's no way i can try to convince my mum about accpeting my religion. n den i was reminded again that God is the one doing all the 'heart' work. my part is to live my life the way God wanted me to and leave the world in God's hands. Ultimately, He is God, He chooses His holy nation. Amen. Though i was upset with what she said.. but was reminded again that she doesnt understand.. "For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God."1 Cor 1:18

sch was quite sian lor... esp maths n chem... almost fell asleep cos i was so tired.. had pe in the morning.. same timing.. 14:10 again.. have to overtake the person in front of me the next time i run :) get a better timing :P SPA was a total wreak.. i did not study light intensity at all lor..can only crap.. n guess what it's 'A' levels practical. Find it quite useless... doing all the practicals and memorising the answers just for the sake of passing 'A's prac, they might scrap it very soon.. so too bad for us.. miss the chance to do interesting hands-on. But perhaps it does help to pull the grades up afterall.

had reunion dinner tonight, a nite earlier but den da gu n all the closer relatives(small family) came, get to see my cousins too.. Yuan Li's getting prettier.. yeah so pretty :P hopefully she's getting along well.. i dun get to talk to her much.ya which is very sad..
it's the first time all of them come at nite for reunion glad glad.. :) though the time was short but it was really a good time... nothing can compare to having quality family times.. i miss them..very much...

how can i cut down on the mistakes i make on court...how can i be consistent.. just consistent... im so sick of all the unforced errors.. which makes my morale low.. sigh-

im getting him off my mind le.. trying very hard too.. decided not to waste my time n energy thinking about him.. but sometimes it's just so hard to get rid of that feeling.. it's just a crush...

vvv tired le.. gonna zzz...orh orh..

had only 4 lessons today... gp was terrible.. din really understand what Chung was saying..politics..history..lazy to memorise all the facts lah! n i scored so badly for essay haiz...

went for meeting for good friday programme.. haha it's gonna be so cool!! exciting events coming up.. im so glad i can do sth that's church based. have been asking how can i serve in church.. woot. Dianne just msg me all of the sudden to ask if i want to participate in the planning. :)

Nicole seems to be coping too much in a short time.. like what i wanted to do last year. was so tired... talked to her, hopefully she'll give some thoughts to it.Seriously, RESt is what you need girl..if u chance upon my blog hee. anw..yah..realise with more rest, can do things better ba.used to spread myself so thin or perhaps i just din manage my time well enough. :p

Im quite contented with my life now cos there's peace n joy in my heart everyday.. just very happy everyday loh.. cos God is WITH ME!! yeah.. :P though i failed my maths n chem.. (almost pass.. n i heard parents got to c the P cos i fail all my tests so far... =S) eh.. i did put in some effort k!!.. bleahzzz..

go bathe... xxxx

by Josh Groban
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: to more than I can be

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

Im slacking again.. "西关大少" going to end le..n i suppose the ending is sad.. i dun like sad endings :( gotta do hw.. n go online for matthew trail later..hopefully my dad doesnt use the com..
ran under the horrible terrible sun today.. somehow got tanned under the 15 min run.I know it sounds ridiculous but.. it's TRUE!! well i dun mind too much cos im jus too fair..haha CMI..
Im not going for Pilot Pen Cup... yeah..disappointed..very...I dun understand y...cos i did train hard...maybe not hard enough..Still I believe...God has a purpose.. a greater plan for me.
Wanna take part in the NUS biathlon. Dont noe whether can make it or not, might just knock out after the swim.. before the run lolx. Sounds fun though.
O it was huiqun who asked me along.Find this lady v fun hee.. Know her when i decided to run serious yesterday morning.train ba.. but im not pushing hard enough.Always get so tired at the begining..was i too fast?i dun think so.. just my small lungs are not expanding enough.haha(so 'biological' ya?) heart not beating enough hahahaha... im crapping. OAC girl.. I like her.pretty.determined.style.hee
Mrs Goh just gave birth to her second son.cool.firstborn was a daughter. ' 好 ' 字.hopefully can visit her tomorrow :)
Com has some problem recently.. can't access friendster..now cannot enter chinese character here...anw...im just glad that i can still blog.. oki haha wasted enough time here. gtg..

"Listen to advice and accept instructions, that you may gain wisdom in the future.
Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand."
Pro 19:20-21