Hi guys.. missed me?

Few updates. 31st Jan is drawing near..its this coming thurs! Only 2 days left to our big show. I cant wait! Basically our story this year is "Love is in the Heir". Modernised fairytale. Pretty cool. With all our props handmade from scratch. And the dances choreographed by our very own dancers and actors very own eusoffians! It's close to a musical and it will definitely be a fantastic night for many of us!

It's 3am and you probably wonder what in the world is Tingyu doing at this hour blogging.. Grace told us there's dance at 1am and then there's Freda's dance the next morning at 8am.. was cursing and swearing (*inside oopx) until I finally see the reason why we had to 'dance'. Grace lovingly did a powerpoint show for us just to thank all her dancers who put in so much effort(from her pt of view :P) it's really amazing how we've walked so far together. From the blur yr1s and 2s and even 3s to the very pro dancing and funky maids and bartlers =) It was really sweet of Grace to asked us to have supper together and watch last yr's DP & of course her message... :)

So... back to the mundane daily routine of lectures and tutorials and labs. I cannot decide whether i should just stay in UCC for rehearsals or go for that 6h lab session of that 6MC module. :S I'm afraid.. I'll lose out either way.haiz. HOW!!! Already I cant catch up with my work.. couldnt understand a single thing my lecturers are saying and whenever i go for LSM2102 lesson, i'll always feel like its a waste of time. The lecturer is really quite bad... he may be knowledgeable, but he really CANT TEACH!Also due to my physical strain(plus he's so not interesting, plus after a heavy lunch) I fall asleep almost all the time! Even with my laptop in front of me! And then the lecturer for LSM2101 in the morning 10am... always makes me feel like sleeping...really monotonous :S

Tmr's IHG badminton Semis (ok I mean later in the evening)... stressed haha. dunno what kind of lineup KR will come up with. Nevertheless, im sure team Eusoff will fight it out with them! yaya!

Alrights. Tat's all for now... gotta slp :D dancing dancing later in the morning!

Signing off! Adios~

slept at 2+ after dance last night.. this morning dance again at 8am.. took some time off to update the world..
school started with a mess cos i couldnt confirm my schedule only until recently when God did a miracle for me. Was frustrated and stressed with lots of things. It wasn't so much of the CORS system, just me. Bidded for the necessary modules before school started and I thought everything was settled until i found out that the practical slot that I had to sign up for clashes with one of my module(cos I sign up late) and I cant change it unless there's a mutual swap. Its quite impossible cos was rather late already and most likely everyone has decided on their schedule. I made a rash decision to bid for a module that is high in demand, forgetting and forgoing the SS module that I've been waiting for since year 1 Sem 2. When I realised it and tried to appeal for it, there seems to be no chance at all. Soon after I was pretty nervous bout the whole unconfirmed timetable and then IHG..the convening hall just doesnt want to change the timing and half my team cannot make it. I cant go to church too because of it :( Then come dance.. choreo xin qing bu hao, making all the dancers so stressed...well it is expected la cos today is the 3rd piecing and next next thurs would be the BIG day.
I've learnt this period to trust God and I mean really trust. I've done all the things that i could and my plans and work doesnt seem to be going in any direction. All I could do was to wait upon the Lord and indeed he never fail.
Somehow the SS lecturer decided to open up more places and I was able to take that module but one of the lecture still clashes with my prac. Soon after I found out that 2 jokers also wanted to change slots and we swapped. So now everything's settled :D Only thing is... I cant go for NUS BLAST now... it clashes wth the prac.
I've been thinking about my whole badminton 'career' these days. 7 years on the courts and now I'm in a dilemma. To quit or not. I thought maybe im really just not cut out to play badminton. Whenever I hear Amanda and Charissa talking about how to play this certain stroke, why didnt it cross, how to counter this and that, how to play this team.. I'm almost not interested at all. I've always been very impressed by their passion and hardwork. Without them or rather Amanda I would have probably gave up badminton a long long time ago. Well I still like the game, I like trainings cos this is where I met my friends, where I learn team spirit and enjoy being part of it, but there is just something amiss. I dunno what it is. Melissa said I would have to change my mentality and focus on the court, think of just badminton and concentrate on the game and things that I have to do. I think its just me. I have a serious problem of focusing and thinking. Laziness? I suppose. So how... to change it! I'm just easily distracted by stuff.. perhaps I really dont wan it hard enough. I want the supper time and the bonding time but not the on-court time.. cos I feel really lousy when im on it. heh. It's harder than I thought it would be.. to leave.
hmm time to organise my study plan and try harder, SMARTER this semester... 2.73.. :S hope to put in more effort and see how. The first 2 lectures were rather scary.. came out of the lecture hall thinking that was a waste of time and still blur about the lesson. I wouldnt say the lecturers are lousy. Just cant express themselves properly maybe and the content/concepts are really DRY! eeekkk! heh.. plus with dance..sleeping at unearthly hours and getting up early the following morning...im feeling burned out even before school started and dance production. Now that CF is going to start soon I think i'll feel it even more. Pray for me.. that God will grant me strength and concentration. And also discipline to read His word and lean not on my own understanding but His. K... gtg.. later got piecing..better get some rest before 1215pm!! :P Ciaos~

ha ha ha ha ha ha! 1 2 3 & 4... (in hokkien)

have been busy with dance.. Eusoff Dance Production 31st Jan 8pm @ UCC.. are you coming? :)
Busy with dance, IVP, IHG badminton.. what can be more shag than a day that starts at 9am with dance and ends at 3am with dance again.. & in between chiong here and there for training and matches...but it's been fun :) fooling around during practice while learning new stuff, polishing my steps(i think i did.... haha)..going out with IVP team... going out with ch & other churchmates to ubin for cycling..

That would be my short and sweet updates for the events these few weeks.

But of cos there are times when im emotionally low..
gotten my results and as you can see it wasnt very satisfactory..in fact i 'deproved'.. with the kind of effort i put in.. i just cannot accept any reason why im not improving at all. Was upset over it..upset with God..why this is happening again and again.. and what about the dream...i want to go on to study medicine..but the future seems bleak. I blamed God cos I believed that things will turn out fine but it didnt. I believed what S say bout God' s favour..(just to prove a point actually to tell S now.. see God didnt bless me with good grades!& so it seems like she thinks I did not really believe..)

Then God reminded me from Isaiah 40

7 The grass withers and the flowers fall,
because the breath of the LORD blows on them.
Surely the people are grass.

8 The grass withers and the flowers fall,
but the word of our God stands forever."

9 You who bring good tidings to Zion,
go up on a high mountain.
You who bring good tidings to Jerusalem, ^[c]
lift up your voice with a shout,
lift it up, do not be afraid;
say to the towns of Judah,
"Here is your God!"

10 See, the Sovereign LORD comes with power,
and his arm rules for him.
See, his reward is with him,
and his recompense accompanies him.

11 He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
he gently leads those that have young.

12 Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand,
or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens?
Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket,
or weighed the mountains on the scales
and the hills in a balance?

13 Who has understood the mind ^[d] of the LORD,
or instructed him as his counselor?

14 Whom did the LORD consult to enlighten him,
and who taught him the right way?
Who was it that taught him knowledge
or showed him the path of understanding?

15 Surely the nations are like a drop in a bucket;
they are regarded as dust on the scales;
he weighs the islands as though they were fine dust.

16 Lebanon is not sufficient for altar fires,
nor its animals enough for burnt offerings.

17 Before him all the nations are as nothing;
they are regarded by him as worthless
and less than nothing.

18 To whom, then, will you compare God?
What image will you compare him to?

19 As for an idol, a craftsman casts it,
and a goldsmith overlays it with gold
and fashions silver chains for it.

20 A man too poor to present such an offering
selects wood that will not rot.
He looks for a skilled craftsman
to set up an idol that will not topple.

21 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
Has it not been told you from the beginning?
Have you not understood since the earth was founded?

22 He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth,
and its people are like grasshoppers.
He stretches out the heavens like a canopy,
and spreads them out like a tent to live in.

23 He brings princes to naught
and reduces the rulers of this world to nothing.

24 No sooner are they planted,
no sooner are they sown,
no sooner do they take root in the ground,
than he blows on them and they wither,
and a whirlwind sweeps them away like chaff.

25 "To whom will you compare me?
Or who is my equal?" says the Holy One.

26 Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of his great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.

27 Why do you say, O Jacob,
and complain, O Israel,
"My way is hidden from the LORD;
my cause is disregarded by my God"?

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.