was typing some sort of a feedback to my chair and advisor regarding Eusoff Christian Fellowship meetings held on mondays, so I thought it would also be good if I forward my reflections to you to keep u updated with what's going on in my life. Of cos many other things have happened and the following is just something with regards mainly to the CF and its quite an informal mail, there are some things you may not understand too haha can just skip it...so just bear with me :)

What I have learnt so far
I guess you must be quite concerned about what I've learnt during the past 2 months being new leading a CG right.. well..here goes...
I think God has been very good to me and I've learnt that in all things.. I really need to depend on God on all things(sch, CG, hall activities), especially with respect to guiding his children. Now that I recall when Jesus resurrected, He asked Peter if he loved Him and if he does, feed His lambs, tend His sheep, feed His sheep. I'm like Peter being distracted by other stuff(he was thinking about if the betrayer would be in heaven), and Jesus told Peter not to be bothered with that but to think for himself 1st..to follow Jesus..(I dunno how to phrase the whole thing la. but i think u get the idea). So I ought to also focus upon Jesus... ultimately..it is my salvation, my calling, my responsibility, my accountability and HIS SHEEPS. who else can I turn to to seek help other than the one who knows HIS sheeps best. And through prayers and reading of His word keeps me focused. It keeps my life in tact too... not like in the past..haha that silly little girl. Tending HIS sheeps is indeed tough but I have to also recognise that God is the one tending it... not me. I'm just a privileged vessel. And over the months, God has kept the group and us(Ian, me, Shuyi..) faithful to the group. Thank God for the people who are still with us today..serving alongside, be it in prayers or in physical service and planning gatherings(Hei Man, Man Yan). I'm grateful also that I've learnt more about building relationships and leading in terms of being more sensitive, understanding and observant (I think la!). I've learnt more about God's grace and mercy. I've learnt more about leaning not on my own understanding but on His. I've learnt more about prioritizing and loving what I'm given(in terms of work-to-do, responsibilities etc in a biblical manner. " "I am the Lord's servant," Mary answered. "May it be to me as you have said." " Luke 1:38 has never been so significant to me before and lets keep each other in prayers that we may also proclaim what Mary did with a strong conviction.

Its weekends!! yay... never felt so happy before that my week has ended. The most xiong week I've ever experienced. A levels was nothing compared to this man... though it was quite tiring too.

I've been through
Mon : lab, jap, mugging, skipped dance, CF, mugging
Tues : 2103 CA, meet Carol, mugging skipped stats training & DP supper
Wed : 2104 CA, IKEA!, jap hw, jap, CF council mtg, rest..
Thur : Kanji, Ailing they all came visiting, Kanji quiz, skipped training, mugging(forensic), Katakana
Fri : Katakana test, mugging, skipped stats(again), Forensic test..FINALLY go home!

Looking at this, I wonder where all the strength had come from. It must have been God's grace and favour! Though I skipped a few lessons here and there..(so now got to do the catching up.. haha my next week is going to be packed too...lessons to catch up and keep up at the same time..woohoo~) Forensic 35%... given that short period of time to study, I was still able to finish all the notes and meet Kalene to test each other.. it was quite a feat. And the questions that came out where almost all that we went through. How miraculous! Thank God... If it weren't for Him, no matter how much I study, I would have failed anyway.(I'm not saying that i'll score.. but at least pass ba.. haha)

(To Guoyao if u're reading..)
I find it.. not so much if I do my best and God will do the rest means I'll get good grades.. but more like I'll give my best cos He deserves the best.. and its my responsibility.. still God will do the rest, yet according to His will and pleasure, be it good grades or not. Still glorified Him~

Thurs Ailing brought 10 ppl to come and visit me in hall..hmm its quite scary har.. Jenna got a shock too... lolx
wanted to lunch with them but.. gotta study for Kanji :( but den again.. really appreciated their visit and feel so loved. There was Ailing, Sharon, Meiying, Angela, Yvonne(baked cheese cake and left a piece for me too!arhhh :~) wanna cry le), Zhenling, Cheryl, Lydia, there's one more girl..cannot rem who, Xidong and Yi han. Then after their lunch.. Uncle Chien Chong and Wenxing drove Rachel(thanks for buying @ student price too! haha) and Ailing to bring my lunch back~~AWWWW!~! Thank you VERY VERY much!!
O Jac and Dan asked me for lunch too... but... Sorry... couldnt.. next time!

When I got home last night, I saw this SooKee Jewellery bag on my table... :D My mum bought me a pair of ear rings from there! its cos she knows I cant wear those silver or fake white gold earrings(my ears will itch and the earrings will turn.. black. sadly heh) and I cannot stand those plastic ones... I feel so loved again.... and I tot it was my aunt who bought it lo.. sorry mummy.. :X

I love God... Thank Him for all these people.. thank Him for all these showering of love. My week hasnt been too bad afterall... ;)

Ok~ Gtg plan my next week and do webcasting on 2103... 108 slides my gosh haha I bet Dr Yeong can finish it in just 2 hours lo. She's super power... but... super boring too.. :X
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I'm supposed to be doing Jap now.. after putting it on hold for a while to study for that super content heavy LSM 2103... and chiong LSM2104 last night. Now I'm just spacing out... gotten some time to write down what went through these few days... grossed..

So... I've been mugging for LSM2103 since last tues and break on thurs to do proj.. but wasted time instead.. on both days. I realised I cannot stop mugging.. if there's a break.. i'll just be distracted totally. My MUGGING ENGINE stops functioning. heh
There's so much to remember.. even the most diligent mugger has trouble memorising all the protein channels and receptors and what not... somehow after a while.. all the sequences and recogntion particles and processes look the same to me... who cares which organelle they are in.. haha
Study until I cry on mon night sia.. 读不完的咯。。为什么!! Prayed for comfort and rest and indeed God was good... I felt asleep and had a good night's rest even though it was only 5 hours. It must have been God's divine appointment that the questions seem fine.. haha(well I have the impression that everything would be bad...it turned out alrights) Nevertheless I was kinda worried.. so I prayed and trusted God..
*ok .. the reason why I'm so stressed is because this idiotic CA is 25% and if i screw up the tests(still have 1 more), I'm almost halfway gone... taking into consideration that my CAP remains no where near 3.0.. its legitimate reason to be troubled ya.. -_- And then the more I think about it, the more I panick and forget things that I studied. o well .. God was faithful.

What a RELIEF from that heavy boulder...

Then returning from that horrible exam venue, I slept and reminded myself to start mugging AGAIN... sigh.. missing my training..missing the DP supper.. being stressed again.. I lost my appetite even though I was really hungry. Had some very light stuff and continue to sort the very messy 2104 notes. Slept at 2am again...
Was 10min late... but I couldnt be bothered already.. super tired. Thank God the questions werent as tedious.. still need some flipping... and its 15%.. I was too tired to be bothered I guess..Tried to make good guesses and with a few flips(its open book), I finished my paper... I thought it was a 2h paper.. but turned out to be 1h.. thank God that I didnt spend time flipping for the 1st few questions...

After which its happy hour!! hee.. went Ikea with Yanhao, Seng, Ben to have a good breakfast, chat and shopping~~ But now... even after getting my mind off work for a few hours, downed cups of coffee, I still feel like a piece of..... nua sai. I'm nodding away in front of my lappie... yet my mind is telling me to do work..(it must be the caffeine!..I'm a walking zombie...)

Mosquitoes... stop biting me... I'll bite u ah! -_- (entropic....? need to add some enthalpy..)

:P

K.. its time for Jap... Ciaos~