The day of irony..

I never thought that it would happen, not so soon or close at least.

I cannot imagine the devastation the mother had felt...
I cannot imagine the trauma the little brother have to go through...
I cannot understand my coldness towards this..
I cannot comprehend the meaning in it...

The day he left without saying goodbye...
The day he left without knowing Lord Jesus...
If he had knew Him earlier... would all these have happen...?

Then I left for the joyous occasion..
Witnessing the holy matrimony...in the presence of the Lord.
I am very very happy for E and V... but why am I not equally upset for what has happened on the other hand...

When I sit down and think hard about it...
my heart sank.
My assignments, projects, grades, my desires don't seem to matter so much anymore..
There's something, definitely, more important than all these paper chase, status and money..
Lives these days so vulnerable..
Like a flower in the pot..
Here today and gone tomorrow...

Yet life can be equally joyous
if only we stop the fast-paced life and think about it.
What's the most most important in life?
What's something that will last.....

"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?" Matthew 16:26

This verse has never been more real to me than today...