why do I bother.. i wonder sometimes. It takes a little effort to care than not to.. but so much more to care when the other party do not reciprocate.
Sometimes I wish I'm not staying in hall. I wish I do not have to bother about the people in Hall. Sometimes I just want to stay in my own quiet corner. Perhaps because I am not included in that happening group which is making so much noise. It bothers me when I'm not included. It bothers me because I think I am self centered.

Taking on so many things make me tired and all the more sick of whatever I have chosen to take up. Life's not very exciting when everyday you have tons of assignments and readings to catch up. Deadlines to meet, project to complete. Even christian activities can be a nuisance at times. I pray that my heart will not turn cold in the midst of all these things. I pray that I would still have time for the people around me, even strangers who come my way. I pray that I'll be able to love them like Jesus did.

But the fact is.. many a times I fail to do so. I do not want to love. Like every other graduating student, I just want to get this last year done and over. I had wished I weren't in University, going through all the unnecessary stress. (Well, I guess it's just in Singapore.) Come to think of it again, billions/trillions of people out there are yearning for the most basic kind of education. How privileged am I but I am almost blind to it.
What to do? I'm consumed each day by the daily needs and attention from all modules and activities. I'm split into many many pieces.. so many that I find it hard to piece them all back together.
I'm being emo now. Its Sunday Night and I'm tired... though its only 1130, I'm feeling strained. Readings not finished, cardio notes not read etc etc..

I need a breather. I need prayers. I need some good fun. I need Jesus.

I need sleep.
Nights.