I think I should just give up this dec's Summer Programme.
Firstly my parents think it's too expensive. 4-5k just for 5wks.. for 3 wks of mugging to cover 2 mod, 1 fieldtrip(which I think its rare) for the Wildlife Diversity module and 1 wk of R&R. Worth it?
Secondly, prof and angie's away.. Really dunno if i can go for SP with UROPS still on. I prob can say bye bye to my mod.
Thirdly, booking flight tics, arranging this and that, paper work is completely troublesome and irritating. Because coming from a 'little travelling' background.. I'm basically lost when it comes to all these. Argh.
Perhaps work and travel is a better alternative since Encik says its definitely much cheaper...
*scratch head then pray*
Lord... how ah....
I really wanna get out of singapore... Get away from this whole spore education system because its just so... suffocating. I want to get out of singapore la!
Super sian la... always got to make such stupid decisions... and then all those people that I need help from are not around at all... so zhun.. :S Lord.. what are you trying to teach me...

Today in church Rev Issac Ong spoke on the first miracle that Jesus did(John 2:1-11). He spoke about how blessings only flow when the disciples/people obeyed His instructions without a fuss. Even if it means silly instructions. Jesus could have filled the jars with wine, but he asked the servants to fill them up with water. They simply did it. And who benefitted from it, the guests, and even the servants who saw such a miracle.
God would not do what we are made to be able to do and God would do the rest that we are unable to. And why should we be doing things halfheartedly when we are given the ability to do what we can? Why are we giving only half our heart to God?
Will the guests be drinking the best kind of wine if the servants become skeptical and filled only half the jars?
Mary had to roll the stone away to let Lazarus walked out in his grave linen to show that Jesus raised him from the dead. Couldn't Jesus roll the stone away without Mary's labour? Couldn't Jesus remove the linen at the snap of his fingers or a word from his mouth? But He chose to raise Lazarus this way.

Obedience is the key. "Whatever He saith unto you, do it".

I need such obedience to be able to see God's glorious work. Be it in me, in others, or in the environment.

May the Lord find me faithful.

Who will be affected if I give a halfhearted job unto Jesus? Who will be affected and possibly end up in hell if I live a christian life halfheartedly? It'll be the people whom i was in contact with.

Who will be blessed if I do a good job? The people around me. And they'll see, they'll praise the Father in Heaven for all the good deeds I've done.

May the Lord be merciful.

May I be able to hear from the Lord on Judgement day:
'Well done, good and faithful servant.'