"... not to look at the world and get distressed, not to look at myself and get depressed, but to look to God and find rest."

easier said than done..
May the Lord has mercy on me.

Amen.

The diving trip to Tioman - Open waters diving lesson no. 1. My 1st encounter with the waterworld under :P

with my dad.


and a couple of friends.




















Notice this interesting sign board before we set off..



The instructor Pat & us










The jap friend whom I gotten to know through the trip :) & the chinese-speaking Ang Moh Mike. Didnt manage to capture Andrea & John & the rest of the group(my dad's friends) though.





Isnt it beautiful??










See my pink mask and the rigged tanks n BC? im all geared for my 1st dive!





















Into the clear blue waters I go! (actually the water is not exactly very clear la..)











The morning breeze and view from the shabby coffee shop we had breakfast :)










The little kampung hut we stayed for the night at Johan's resort :p








For other photos :
too bad I dun have a underwater cam.. if not i would have taken the shark I saw..the feeding green back turtle.. the blue spotted ray..the cute flatfish.. the school of fishes swimming around me.. the corals.. the clownfishes.. the bubbles.. the remora twice.... (1st : saw it trying to stick to me, 2nd time to Pat leg hee)

the underwater world.

Wind was strong hence the choppy seawaters... snorkeled at Bahara Rocks..open channel and its not advisable for beginners like me to go... went nevertheless.. cos the boat was so rocky! Ben and the twins puked lo... I was already feeling giddy without sea sickness.. the rocking effect was immense heh. But the snorkel was great.. in fact i enjoyed it so much! though it was hard swimming against the waves and den it kinda sweep me towards the rocks.. I saw like alot of things.. looking down at the seabed was an enchanting sight. I cant wait to go for another dive~~

Though you may choke on the yucky seawater..(its super salty!! makes your nose and throat hurt), risk getting decompression sickness, seasick puking & all sorts of weird happenings..
I still think everyone should try diving. The experience is worth all the while!

I'm so doing nothing in the office!!!!
Slacking around... no one has things for us...

1-4 Jun was well spent at the church camp in Batam. Servant's Heart was the camp theme song. I cried when we sang this after the message on "Love the Lord your God with all your being and love your neighbours as yourself" on the 3rd day. I was guilty of not giving my heart wholeheartedly. I guess no one can ever do so other than the Lord Jesus Christ and hence that makes Him the purest of all and man, the worst sinners. However the power of Christ and His gospel has given me the capability to say I can hence it is not an excuse. I knew why I was guilty. Cos i have CHOSEN not to do so. I was so caught with my own self(the number 1), my pride, my work, the temporal fun, rat race in Singapore, career ladder concerns, money...etc etc that I missed out what is the most important in life; God, His Word, His promises, God's people, Christ's death, His resurrection, His life, His gospel, His ministry. Vanghan Roberts said in his book, Distinctives, that goes like people see no eternal or after life(or God even), no wonder the indulgence and careless lifestyle today...People look only at the present, no past, no future. I weighed the value of being a christian; to the world, its foolishness but to those who understands, its priceless... whoever keeps his life will lose it but whoever loses his life in this world will keep it for eternal sake(John 12:25). Why is it so difficult to be a christian? Why is it so difficult to deny myself daily and pick up my cross to follow Jesus? Yet I cannot deny the fact that He lived, died, rose and is still living! God is real and his commandments shall stay true forever. Hence when His ways are totally not the ways of the world, its difficult... plus the fact that my sin continues to thrive... unless I choose to obey and trust wholeheartedly, pray fervently, God-willing. And to stop grumbling/complaining in the situations/things i have to do.... But all things done unto God's glory! He's the best provider and sustainer of our lives~

To see pass myself and look upon the Calvary.. His love for me and everyone else. I have no reason to be prideful in the things that I've done or anything that I'll be doing or being a saved person because He has chosen to show grace upon me.. Nothing have I done to make Him love me, nothing I can do to make Him love me more or anyone else. He alone is Almighty God. Hence I've learned to love people...who matters very much to Him, especially to those who obviously needs Him yet refuse to acknowledge His existence and power in their pride. May I have compassion, Lord! May I have a servant's heart like Jesus..."Even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many."(Mark 10:45).

The other lessons during camp that left a deep impression was on God's predestination and assurance of the absolute certainty of harvest with regards to evangelism. God's works have been evident in my life.. His works, His guidance... His protection all for the sake of His daughter here. It is NOT by chance that I become a Christian and it is an assurance to know that I will not lose my salvation. Furthermore, I will not be laboring in vain (ECF, sharing gospel to strangers) because of the assurance of God's prepared nation for Himself. At the end of the day.. those who will be saved will be saved... God does not need me to save His people, neither does He need me to tell of this good news.. but here comes the best part..He has graciously given me the privilege to share the joy of saving someone; to share the gospel. What joy is that! :D

So i had some good time fellowshipping with my churchmates..know more people esp the aunties and the uncles and the younger ones :D Its really a joy to know more people in church.. its like a family... After the camp I actually missed the times when all of us have meals together...laugh together, play together regardless of age..studying the Word of God daily...walking close with Him...with His people..learning from each other...enjoying each other's company...I find that a glimpse into heaven :D

O...the last night of camp..I shared the gospel with this 'shou biao mei' hee.. Her name's Meixia, tending a store at a young age..fending for herself and family..when she shd be in JC if she had been in spore.. She's someone of a different faith yet so willingly listened to me when I share the gospel and open enough to tell me about her family and her life... I was pleasantly surprised at her friendliness..you seldom find that back home.. :x And so I gave her my bible (Sorry Chingz, Manyiu~) and she gladly accepted it, she said she'll read it~ I tell you..I WAS SOooo HAPPY!!! Danced around in the dark under the stars ~~~ hee

O.. and the games went well..everyone enjoyed :D just that I kinda screwed up my explanation of the finale.. but ah. heck.. everyone had fun! I'll do better the next time hee

When I reached home on 4jun... i concuzzed from 2-7.. 5 hrs str and slept again at bout 1230 til 9 the next morning. I had gained some pretty good fatigue haha Subsequently.. I lazed around at home... trying to catch some rest before going out again on fri night, meet Jasper, the JC student whose project im supposed to help and hence im attached to..(marine bio stuff) cos I wanted to explore this area so I can decide if I still want to do UROPS under Prof Chou.. heh and NGTAJ for dinner~ Girls' night out :P

Sat = rest. Sun out with churchies for lunch at Lucky Plaza..Ayam Penyet..hmm it was.. alright la..the chilli was good though. And toured Borders & Topshop then went on to get Cheryl's wedding gift. She's getting married!! :D so happy for her hee.. and im excited! Daniel's doing her music and the little performance on that day.. hee cool eh

Then Monday was the killer day... woke up at 630am to catch the 930am ferry at Pasir Panjang Ferry Terminal, well was heading to St John's Island. why did I get up so early?cos Jasper said we meet at 815 Harbourfront MRT.. greats! but thank God i didnt fall asleep helping him with his project. In fact I thought I was a little nuisance haha.. Made a old/new friend at TMSI, De Xiang.. yr 2 life sci student.. think I have the impression of seeing him in sch but just cannot register who exactly he is.. but o well.. good that I can learn some stuff from him there.. if not i think i might just waste quite a fair bit of time just planting coral fragments, measuring them and cleaning the tanks.. :x oopx.

So that's some recent updates.. Gonna start an admin job tmr at AON Singapore.. insurance company.. im looking forward to it! hee gonna sleep early..ciaoz~

"Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."John 14:6