This past week had been quite a mental torture due to the overwhelming things to handle. Perhaps not so much things to handle, but all the thoughts at the back of my mind.
The incidents that happened are rather personal so I wouldn't list them here.


This list of words cannot express fully what I have gone through but in essence, these were roughly what I could think of.

This whole week's episode has taught me humility, honesty and edification of another person. My pride has caught alot of troubles and regrets, my words because of pride and uncontrolled moods had caused discord and misunderstanding.
"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen." Eph 4:29 This particular verse has never come across so strongly to me than this period. How true is that. "A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger."Pro 15:1
A haughty heart is detestable before God. (Proverbs 21:4) At the receiving end of words that were not entirely kind myself, I shouldnt have said much to another person what I do not like to bear as well. We are all humans with a heart that's breakable afterall. And no wonder God said speak only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs and only those that benefit those who listen..because even if you speak on just your own experience, things may turn ugly because you didnt have others' interest at heart and words spread... they are scary. To be able to edify others is to clothe ourselves with humility and put others first. Which probably is the hardest things to do ever. Yet again, if Christ hasnt put on that humility, we'll still be under the wrath of God... Christ died for us when we were all sinners.

Watched the ::Prince Caspian:: yesterday, I must say that C.S. Lewis is truly a gifted writer, imaginer(ok..if there's such a word) and also a faithful believer of the Christian faith. Maybe I entered the theatre with a certain 'christianly' perception of the movie, traces of biblical stories and godly principles, relationship with God, man's sinful nature penetrated throughout that 2.5h. And the movie taught me a good lesson..together with all the recent happenings. I'm beginning to admire the way CS Lewis thinks as he writes his stories.. even his children stories carry very deep meaning behind every plot, every conversation.

I saw so many parallels of my life in this Lewis story. I saw my own pride in Peter's pride, unbelief & being in own comfort zone like those of Susan's, Edmund's determination & decision to crush the white witch(which I suppose it was Satan), Lucy's desire and pure heart to see Azlan, her sincere seeking has led her to find her love, her assurance, peace and joy. Sometimes I'm like Lucy & Edmund... but more often than not, I find myself in situations like Peter and Susan.. Peter's pride and self centered way led into unnecessary and terrible consequences, especially when Lucy had reminded him Azlan was the one who truly defeated the white witch and they should wait and seek Azlan to lead this war against their enemies and return the Narnians their kingdom.
Peter and Caspian were tempted by the White Witch and those that pledged loyalty to her. It shows how the Witch make them doubt and at the same time spoke things & offer them what their hearts wanted, especially when the line drawn between right and wrong becomes very fine.It was a perfect analogy how Satan tempts us..... only when Edmund broke that thick piece of ice in which White Witch was residing in, can Peter see Azlan.
I pray that I'll have the same desire as Lucy, as much as she wants to see Azlan, talk to him, be with him, I want to too, see God, talk to God, listen to Him, be with Him. And then we'll both know nothing beats time spent with Him alone, because he knows best and he'll give us the best. I pray also that even if I have to go to Him alone.. I will.

K overall if you like actions, if you like stronger war plots/strategies, cuter characters, more magnificent scenes.. then i guess you'll like the 2nd story of the Chronicles of Narnia more than the 1st one :P

PS..I'm havin a very bad headache and feeling nausea.. so some stuff written today may seem very incoherent.. so sorry :X heh