E320. That's my new room. I chose it. Love it. But not after my mother started telling me how the afternoon sun will heat up my whole room and blah blah bla.... -_-"

She was right you know. When the sun shone in I was quite frustrated with the heat. Whatever the case, I'm stuck there for the rest for this year... so i'll just bear with it and enjoy the nights and my little corner :)

My mother was so sweet! She offered to come all the way to nus to help me clean my room(together with me.. of cos!). Ended up she did most of the work while i changed the dirty water for her, cos I kept running around... got to swap my modules.. chit chat along the way while i strolled back to my room. hee :P
No doubt she scolds me, hated my faith and all... She's still the BEST woman given by God in my life! :D 3 Cheers to my Mummy!
A wonderful woman.. even though she doesnt believe what the bible says about God's perspective of a woman/mother, she gave all her heart and soul to the family, taking good care of me and my father, well physically i must say, though not mentally(never spiritually) many a times.. still I must compliment her of her dedication. How many woman can actually do that man! When she cleaned my room today, I was so impressed with her. Thinking that she has to manage the whole house by herself and no one really talks to her... Wo zhen shi bu xiao..

I got my core modules swapped with another girl, gotten all the core modules that I've wanted. Including stats which i appealed for it today :D Thank God! hopefully the central server in nus works, if not i'll just faint haha.. cos got to do down to LSOC again.

Attended the MOU ceremony between Playware and Uni SIM today as a playware staff. Its quite an eye opening session even though it didnt turn out as grand as I had previously expected. Both sides dua bai came to sign the agreement form together and we got to take photos and pass them some pamphlets. Such events to me seem so fake and people are just hypocritical. Perhaps the sincerity of making a business/a deal is real, but what about the sincerity of what you say in order to make the deal? I just have this impression of these business partners parroting what each other say to make each other feel flattered; in order to strike a better deal. Even the bosses who made the speech cant help but boost their own companies and praise their partnering companies. O well.. its a real corporate world...

Rushed off to NUS right after that.. had a long tiring day rushing from places to places.. man.. im exhausted.. signing off..tata~

My 2nd blog :) http://his-word-my-life.blogspot.com

Below is something from the student study bible that I have :

"You killed the author of life, but God raised him from the dead. We are witnesses of this." Acts 3:15
Seeing a ghost doesnt make a person stronger and more confident. The witness is usually reluctant to talk about the experience. Self-doubt attacks in waves :Was it real? Maybe I was hallucinating.. It was so dark and eerie.
When Jesus showed up after his death, his disciples went through a Did-we-see-a-ghost? phase, complete with terror, disbelief and wild rumours. But it didnt last long. In 40 days, Jesus made enough undeniable appearances to convince each of his disciples-even skeptical Thomas- that he had indeed overthrown death.
As Acts shows, the disciples began acting the opposite of people who think they've seen a ghost. Rather, they acted like people who had just witnessed the most astounding event in all history. They couldnt wait to tell the whole world about it!!

Think about it.. if Jesus died and not resurrected, he was a ghost or some spirit, would his disciples or christians around the world today have done what they did? "Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6

“为了养家糊口咯。。”

这句话是一句含了多少辛酸的一句话啊。。
十年的寒窗苦读只交会了怎么写这成语却没有办法传达背后的意义。。
劳心劳苦，任劳任怨，为的就是扶持妻儿。。

一直以来， 我无法完整地了解为什么老爸天天迟归， 回来了还要继续做其他工作。。
那天从Uncle Victor的口中听到了这句话，再加上我也开始认真的赚取零用钱， 才真正地体会到父母的苦。。
赚钱难，存钱更难。。我很庆幸，也很感谢天父给于那么爱我疼我的父母亲。。不管他们的衣服再旧也好，吃得再省也好， 都总是还会把最好的留给我。。真是天下父母心。。

Romans 1:21
Although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, & their foolish hearts were darkened.

A family of mice lived inside a large piano. All the dark spaces of their world were filled with sound and harmony. At first, the mice were impressed by it. They drew comfort and wonder from the thought that someone who made the music, though invisible to them, was close to them.

Then one day, a daring mouse climbed up part of the piano and returned very thoughtful. He had discovered how the music was made. Wires were the secret; tightly stretched wires of graduated lengths which trembled and vibrated. They must revise all their old beliefs. None but the most conservative could believe longer in the Unseen Player.

Later another explorer carried the explanation further. Hammers were now the secret, numbers of hammers dancing and leaping on the wires. This was a more complicated theory, but it went to show that they lived in a purely mechanical and mathematical world. The Unseen Player came to be thought to be a myth.

But the Pianist continued to play...

>> this little story I took from SYFC 'Communique' kinda reminds me to always remember the Player who sustains the very beautiful live music in me every moment.

AT 4.25pm today, I believed those who were whacked by my swinging racket before(eversince the time I started playing badminton), are VINDICATED today. I've got whacked by a student just exactly the same way I made my coach bled when I was P3/4... Thank God I missed his eye. N today, thank God she missed MINE!

So now, while Harry Potty(I said that to my mother can..) has a lightning Z on his forehead, I've got an exclamation mark '!' on my forehead... Swinging racket.. man! its dangerous... haha..
Sigh, I've got enough pimples on my cheeks, now an ! ... when's my vindication... hurhurhur..

Alrights.. Whats on today? Went to church this morning. Mandarin service.
Even though I came from a chinese congre back at All Saints, I wasn't too comfortable actually listening to sermon in chinese. too used to the english 1 I guessed. Sermon was about how Noah was a righteous and perfect man before God, pursuing a righteous life before God, doing what God pleases even if he has to walk all alone on the earth. And with that, God used him to preserve the world.

Got a sling bag from my aunty yest, old as it may be, but just the way I want it. hee.. Den i dun have to buy 1!! :P my desire satisfied... can I say God gave it to me hee.. cos I've been thinking of getting one for a long time! So im super happy now! =D

hmm.. nothing to fill this entry now, that crack on my head hurts whenever I frown haha.. so i shall read and pray & have some beauty sleep early tonight! tata~

@ my grandma's, sitting at the porch,reflecting upon the whole week's events. Its kinda pretty I think. (Other than the cigarette smell that really irks me!) I'm sitting under this dimly lit fan lamp.. warm orange light. + there's some drizzle now.. romantic leh.. i love this setting :P What's lacking is just a cup of good coffee and some serenity.(my parents are watching tv, argh! haha)

have been lazy to update my blog.. so now i'll just list what i remember from the week.. :P

This week has been quite 'eventful'.. cos its packed with events..
Mon night : tennis with aunty ling2, Ching, dinner after that, reached home at 1130
Tues : Started work at Uncle Victor's. Ikea with Zhiye and a trip to his new home in ntu
Wed : rest
Thurs night: Movie with a weird combi, still.. quite alright
Fri night: Coaching, played a match and stopped after having some difficulty breathing -_-
Sat : FINALLY.. I rested. still very tired.. and not feeling too well. coaching.
Sun : ... I dunno.. coaching definitely and rest day

I've started work at the game coy. It has definitely been much more interesting and enjoyable than the accounts department at the previous company. Haha no offense to the accountants, just that im easily bored see. hee (Accounts is BOring!;p) Do admin, test games... hee. how many people can officially play games during office hours. ME! hee envious leh! I've been learning alot too.. not just how games are roughly created, how game coys collaborate even with institutions, I've also been learning how to work under a christian boss and also the characters of different people.
Its no wonder the Bible talks about how man are spiritually blinded that they take even the silliest thing in the world to worship as if a god. And how christians can speak blindly through their eyes how faithful they are, how they take pride in the number of years they attend church yet their way of doing things, what they say, their behaviour betray their very word they talk about their faith. It sad though to see such a person. They THINK that they are in the light, yet they cannot be bothered if they really saw the light or not and when someone tell them that they are still in the darkness, they turn a deaf ear. It reminds me of my grandmother too.

No doubt she has accepted Christ in some mega church, there's nothing in her life that reflects the true conviction of her profession. She doesn't want to know more about God but just solely believes that God will bless her materially, physically, all's well and that's all she wants. There's so much I want to tell her.. that this Christian God is not like the buddha or goddess of mercy that is manipulated easily or simply blesses what YOU want and are basically moulded into your own thinking. This Christian God is a God that gives her life, gives her a family, keeps her and the family.... look at Him! not herself... its not as if God doesnt know her needs, just that that this relationship with her dear God is so much more important than material and physical satisfaction.

Haven really been reading and praying.. I then experienced literally how Satan uses this opportunity to attack my mind and soul. My temperaments change, my behaviour change, my words got harsher and stuff... are there times when you regret immediately the words that jus slip out of your mouth and the way you feel about things? That you shouldnt have said what you said, done what you did or feel what you felt... I do man. Many times. I guess God has already warned me before I was tempted to just give up.. cos this passage in Ephesians was specially striking when I read it :
"Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints" Ephesians 6:10-18
I guess its just me.. not willing to submit and find ways in which I can apply God's word in my life, only waiting for situations that test my faith, then sometimes fails it. Temptations are great... For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.(eph6:12)..

Anw, the trip to ikea was quite fun. I've always loved to walk around in ikea or just any furniture shops..fantasizing the layout of my room, the things to buy.. simply just have fun! hee Went to ntu hall 4 after tat. The little corner room of Zhiye's made me feel so fortunate staying in Eusoff! haha. Yea.. it was really small and old and... hmm dark? (Harry Potter's room eh?)

Talking about Harry Potter, I thought the book was more engaging than the movie. Not that fantastic after all. The book successfully portrayed an agonised Harry but not the movie.. and since the book itself was already quite draggy, lest the movie. Like how CH puts it, e climax was too short; it's way too draggy in front; (list not exhaustive).. the combi was weird.. I felt it that way too, not just you dearest.. hee that would prob be the 1st n last time..

Friday's coaching was (thank God) a breeze, 2 monkeys and 1 super cutie! Thank God they listened to me if not i think i would have flared up with my kind of physical condition that night.. After that I played a match and went breathless, felt like a hyperventilation, but it wasnt la. So I stopped, went home, concussed.zzzz.and that's also why Jac couldnt get me when she smsed me at 1am... haha.. was fast asleep by then :P

A Passion For Thee

Set my heart, O dear Father,
On Thee, and Thee only,
Give me a thirst for Thy presence divine.
Lord, keep my focus on loving Thee wholly,
Purge me from earth; Turn my heart after Thine.

A passion for Thee;
O Lord, set a fire in my soul, and a thirst for my God.
Hear Thou my prayer, Lord, Thy power impart.
Not just to serve, but to love Thee with all of my heart.

Father fill with Thy Spirit, and fit me for service,
Let love for Christ every motive inspire,
Teach me to follow in selfless submission,
Be Thou my joy and my soul's one desire.

A passion for Thee;
O Lord, set a fire in my soul, and a thirst for my God.
Hear Thou my prayer, Lord, Thy power impart.
Not just to serve, but to love Thee with all of my heart.

I always enjoy the time i spend with aunty ling ling they all.. should i call them the jogging clique? haha I feel very comfortable with them :) funny jac, cynical kee min, bouncy monster mini and comical uncle david.. hmm im missing dearest ching ching hee
(And I appreciate how willing they are to embrace someone new into their group.. felt very loved...I thank God for you..all of you!! :))

So we spend our night jogging at east coast again and dinner/supper at President's place :D yippie!

Slept at 2+ last night cos reached home late.. finally wrote the letters after procrastinating for a few days. I was afraid of any repercussions or sticky situations where I can't get out if they decide to take any actions against me... So I didnt want to leave email address but I changed my mind after what the follwing was said. I guess he was right la..
1) hand written would definitely be more sincere. can always include the email address if they want to clarify anything.
2) as christians we should be responsible for our actions and shouldnt be fearful of any repercussions... (this struck me..)
3) If I'm sincere about reaching out to them/pointing out truth to them we should give them the chance to clarify(sth like that)
4) If I'm sincere, they'll know it or even appreciate the fact that someone cares enough to take the trouble(even though they are someone higher in authority)
I cant remember the rest le.. So anyway, I decided to leave my contacts and hopefully what I wrote wasnt rude.. =x Should there be any reply or violent reactions from them, it'll still be under God's providential..

Went for Bible study group today @ Uncle Gerald's place.

Today's topic was part 2 to hindrances to our service. Looking at Jeremiah 1:4, 6:16-19, 12:5-6.
We looked at specific instances where God chose Jeremiah to be a prophet, how the people responded and Jeremiah's lamentations(NOT about why no hot water, why suddenly rain that kind of thing lo..), and how still, at the end of the day, Jeremiah stay focused on God.
I had a tough time capturing all that everyone said. All I can remember at the end of the day is to persevere for the sake of God's kingdom. To be obedient to His instructions and trust in His calling. Sound simple yea, i've always been talking about this same two things, trust and obey. But.. this has never been easy for a rebel like me heh.
During the lesson I thought about how Jeremiah was also an ordinary person, not any braver or gifted than anyone of us today. He was a youth when called to be a prophet(I think I saw this.. correct me if im wrong!). Zhen Long was saying.. 'Can you imagine a person called to be prophet and also told that the people that he has to talk to will not listen?' How 'encouraging' I thought.. and God told Jeremiah that.. the people will not listen to him. Still, Jeremiah did what was pleasing to God. Obey. If I were him, I'll probably just take my bag and leave. Who wants to do such a unsatisfying job!? The lesson I took home today was to believe that God does what he pleases, of cos with a greater purpose that I do not see it (most of the time). Of Cos Jeremiah went through his struggles being a prophet to such difficult lot and complained. Yet Jeremiah knows that God will vindicate the righteous and to the unrighteous gives their due punishment in His own time. God is a righteous God.

" "If you have run with the footmen, and they have wearied you, Then how can you contend with horses? And if in the land of peace, in which you trusted, they wearied you, Then how will you do in the floodplain(*thickets) of the Jordan? For even your brothers, the house of your father, Even they have dealt treacherously with you;" " Jer 12: 5-6a

The way that Zhen Long and the rest talks about the Bible made me realised how little I know about God's story. The way He choses His people, the way these people are moulded.. etc I know nuts about them! Must read and study liao la.. Jer..1 Tim.. DISCIPLINE!!PASSION!!

Ultimately this whole lesson leads us to the conclusion that we should all persevere in our ministry and service to God. No matter how difficult the situation is, no matter the results, if this is the area that God has called us to serve, give wholeheartedly, cos He has given us the privilege to do so.(Called from millions to serve the Creator leh! :D)

After 600 tries of Thomas Edison's experiments, his student gave up.But Thomas Edison told his student, they had discovered 600 different how NOT to make light, instead of having 600 failures. Wow! What perspective!
So Should I also put it this way : Christians have discovered millions of ways to overcome their challenges(and growing strong by God's grace) than have met thousands of sufferings and persecutions. God help us to see things in YOUR perspective!

We went on to talk about knowing when to move on to another ministry or to stay on. God has placed leaders in our lives to guide us. There are situations that we face forces us to stay in the same ministry. Just as how God has called Jeremiah and given him a task to do, Jeremiah would probably stop doing it until God says stop. Likewise, to Zhen Long, what govern his stay or go is the one who has appointed him and assigned duties to him. His leaders. Of cos the one leading the leaders would be God Himself la.
I guess, along with prayers and a close walk with God, seeking after his heart will lead us to where He truly wants us to be. At the end of the day, Christianity is still talking about this relationship with God and his glory.

How bout how do we know if this is the area that God wants us to go into? God has also given us gifts/talents, some things we are good at, some things we are not. Its a matter how we can render the little that we know to Him best in our gifted areas. what about our passion leh? If no desires how? Explore more? (I've yet to ask these questions..I guess there's no clear cut answers to this anyway..har)

Well, there's too much things on my mind.. they are all in a mess somehow. I just want to thank God today that MY MOTHER DIDNT NAG AT ME FOR GOING TO BS!!:) ok. she did la for a while den I prayed... for her to just stop nagging/scolding. heh I know its not really the right thing to pray la but well... I did and she stopped!! was quite surprised.. har I also prayed that she'll not be angry about it la.. she nag and scold means she angry ma right.. hope she doesnt get too agitated and pls pray that she'll even want to know what I'm doing in church!! hee

KM told me that I should just tell my mother that im going for BS and trust that God will guide lo. True enough.God led, God blessed :) It reminds me of this quote thing that Dora wrote on my notebook during our sec 4 days.

I miss C4...

Its strange how I sat on my bed and shed tears of joy as I pray. I couldnt stop praising God! He's just so good to me :)

Today's sermon gave me some great insights on how I should live my everyday and Bible study seminar taught me to appreciate people around me more.

Uncle Chien Chong taught on "What you never knew..." about what parents appreciate their children for, vice versa and what are some of things that bites us. Well.. it was almost like a 'get to know you' session. Hee. It was fun and the lesson that followed was very well applicable to today's society.
Since creation, the basic unit of a society is the family. It still is today. Even the secular government recognises it. God has created to be so what..1 man 1 woman since the beginning lo.(who says you cant prove God?) The crumpling of the families will eventually lead to the collapse of the society. Isnt this happening all around the globe, where the number of broken families and single parent children increases rapidly as the days go by? Families only flourish when they an draw deeply from virtues like love, commitment, compassion, and sacrifice. Where these things are missing, it is hard for them to breathe.
And christian families are given extraordinary opportunities to witness for Christ as they follow the ways of the Lord in building the families. Patterns of courtship that preserve both passion and purity and wives live out submissive love. They'll probably see a complete picture in homes of fervent christians where Christ is at the center and his gospel is the air that they breathe. In our Asian culture, many are taught to be filial and kind and whatever that Confucian has taught but these are also the people that carry out duties sometimes with a wrong motive. Doing it for the sake of it and to prevent being scolded. How many parents really care to maintain love, commitment, compassion and give unconditional sacrifice for the sake of the children or even spouses, that makes love grow? How many kids are willing to give up their own ambitions to live their lives for others and for the sake of their parents? In fact, children are pushed to pursue their own goals in life. In this individualistic, fallen apart world, can we still find love, joy and peace in today's families..?

We can never make make Blue Red
But we can make Blue bluer and Red reder
than this world will definitely be more colourful.

Acceptance.Support.

o man... i jus type a super long emo entry.. but there's sth wrong with blogspot... it didnt save the entry.. :(
guess I'm not going to retype it.. sigh

She's got an angelic voice I tell you! This 6-year-old is fantastic! Simply heavenly!
& she made it to the FINALS ok!

The picture I uploaded in blog 2... very nice hor :D

FINALLY!!!
finishing typing the whole overview given by "How to Read the Bible Book by Book" in my blog 2 in one sitting!! hee :D Its written by Gordon D. Fee and Douglas Stuart. Its kinda tough maintaining two blogs man.. but it will also mean that my wrist will become stronger due to the typing..heh
I'm brain dead now.. after doing that transfer(data entry according to Ling Ling jie). Sat in front of my lappie for say... 3-4 hours can.. :S my gosh!

As I type and type and type.. I realise the author was super lor sor la... heh
I also remember what Ollie said that day about Christians have our belief based in the past and the future..(past and future religion eh.) From the time when God created man and woman..to choosing his people..to his redemption plan..Christ died on the cross and resurrected 2000 years ago.. to the persecution and martyrdom to the present when Christians hope in the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. Quite cool eh! Dynamic belief (I tot) haha :P

O my blog2... tot it'll be good for me to keep a blog to keep some of my notes and thoughts when I read/study the bible.. since I'm half the time online... make good use of the time hee
Hope that it'll also edify those who read it :D
I don't intend to practise dualism.. haha dont worry. But still.. pray that I wouldn't fall into it!

Today's another day off. Stayed at home be good girl hee. Going for my usual badminton session later yoohoo! hee tata~

Living for Jesus, a life that is true,
Striving to please Him in all that I do;
Yielding allegiance, glad hearted and free,
This is the pathway of blessing for me.

Refrain

O Jesus, Lord and Savior, I give myself to Thee,
For Thou, in Thy atonement, didst give Thyself for me.
I own no other Master, my heart shall be Thy throne.
My life I give, henceforth to live, O Christ, for Thee alone.

Living for Jesus Who died in my place,
Bearing on Calvary my sin and disgrace;
Such love constrains me to answer His call,
Follow His leading and give Him my all.

Refrain

Living for Jesus, wherever I am,
Doing each duty in His holy Name;
Willing to suffer affliction and loss,
Deeming each trial a part of my cross.

Refrain

Living for Jesus through earth’s little while,
My dearest treasure, the light of His smile;
Seeking the lost ones He died to redeem,
Bringing the weary to find rest in Him.

I've recently found this hymm very apt and I'm going to list it under one of my favourites!! hee.. :D My dearest treasure... the light of His smile...

"Unless you are faithful in small matters, you won't be faithful in large ones." - Luke 16:10a (NLT)

Life is a test and a trust. What begs the next question - how do we know with what are we tested and with what are we entrusted with? I think the key is in the verse above - small matters. We are to be faithful in small matters.

Oftentimes, we think that we should and can do big things for God. Sometimes God calls us to courageously step forward to accomplish great things for him; however most times it is the small matters that really matters to God. The seemingly insignificant, mundane, common stuff of our life:

- Showing care and love to our parents everyday by helping with chores, being respectful and even just spending time with them;
- Being a good student by diligently doing the work required of you and by being honest;
- Doing what is expected of you at work by working hard as if it's for God;
- Giving thanks to God for the little graces in life and living life with gratitude and cheer; and
- Many others seemingly little things.

Small matters, but they matters to God. For it is in the small matters that our character is built, one small thought and action at a time.

That was from Ollie's blog..
It reminds me of what my mum said to me about how she cant trust me with heavier responsibilities when I cant even take care of the little things at home. (like keeping my room tidy..-_-") Mother's words.. be it biblical or not.. Its always to certain extent, true... N I shall try .. to do the small things that pleases God and my parents. consistently...*

I've been complaining and complaining about how boring my job is.. only to realise it now that im in fact very fortunate and blessed. God blessed me!

1. I got this job when I decided to just let God lead me.(was frantic about my unemployed status at that time)
2. Wanted admin. Got admin.
3. I'm entitled to msn, surf the net, listen to fm. (God gave knowing that I cant stand the monotone..)
4. the entire office listens to class 95 all day. (like Wow!)
5. there's recreation room where we play soccer on PS during lunch time.
6. entitled to use the little gym facilities.
7. wanted a job that allows me to take leave for church camp..went Batam and back
8. I can almost leave as n when I wan to since my pay is via 'per hour'.. (ok tats not really a plus pt.. no work means no pay... haha)
9. now that I'm sick of admin. its a mundane job, esp when its temp.. God gave me rest. Though it also means my pay will be $72 less.. still its rest. N I suppose I need it. My boss says that I do not have to work the next two days. Praise the Lord!

Then I'll have the time to stay at home, do what I have been wanting to do.. Rest in the day for night cycling on fri(hopefully..).. SEE! what more can I ask for!? God has already given me the best! hmm.. so I shant complain...about my job :)

Argh.. my back is aching... (just right after i say I shant complain). Its aching for some unknown reason:S pray for me!!!! Im getting old i suppose... o well. hee

kept checking my mailbox today.. hoping Dr Chew will reply my mail.
I sent this mail asking him some questions on being a sports physiologist. Some background about Dr Chew.. he heads the department of Sports Medicine in Alexandra Hospital and was the one whom I liased with during my attachment with AH during J1. He was also the one who was in charged of clearing up the mess I made at that time :s shall not say what it is. hee

And so, I'm toying around the possibility of being a sports physio, in hope of being one that's good enough to be attached to a national sports team. Boy! that'll be fun :P hmm but i do suspect my own abilities of achieveing that haha Besides this sports physio thingy, I've been thinking about teaching. PE. I wouldn't want to teach any other subjects in fear of teaching the wrong stuff haha. Instead of imparting the correct facts, I might just tell them that chloroplasts can be found in humans instead of plants! haha :P
PE cos... I love sports! hee as simple as that. then I can interact with youths! :D hope to make a difference in the lives of these ppl....
Spot the similarities in both these two paths that I've chosen!! "p

I've finished what I'm supposed to do early... and my supervisor is getting excess stuff for me to do.. heh :S its an hour to 530!!

I just have to blog this before I sleep tonight. :D

Cant praise God enough! He simply amazes me! I'll tell you why in just a while~~

Went to watch Caleb's choral group(ACJC alumni choir) performance today with Ollie and XiuHui. It sounded heavenly!(ok.. besides the fact that i didnt really get what they were singing..haha) Their voices blended so flawlessly that I couldnt really hear who was singing what(assuming this is supposed to be the way hee) There were so many people but I could hear almost one voice. I could clearly hear the sopranos etc (** sopranos all i know). Anw it was just..wwwoooowww.. :D

Guys' voices are usually masculine while females the opp, single gender choral groups are impressive yet when they combine, its a perfect thing i find. Was thinking to myself.. and God made man and woman together in his own image. Woman made to be man's helper. 当女人的嗓音与男人的歌喉融合在一起时真是相得益彰，天衣无缝。 这两种声音是相辅相成的。。就像神当时在创世纪时给男人做了个女人， 好让女人能够做男人的好帮手。神也吩咐男人要爱妻如同爱自己的身体，照顾她，甚至得舍命保护她， 宛如耶稣爱人舍命保护。。。(enough of chinese eh..heh)

no wonder it was PERFECT. cos God is.
Kinda felt inspired to join choir after this hee.. sing for the Lord, well capability aside. haha. I love their encore piece. Its impressive how a solo singer can sing along with a choir backing its background music. There's no instruments no nothing. Just God-given voices. The outcome : angelic music, wonderful combination. *wow!=D*
--> k ya i noe I very lor sor. but this is my blog!! haha let me be my usual self kx hee

After the performance, all 3 of us were hungry so we quickly settled at Thai Express for dinner. Had a great time catching up and amusing Ollie n XiuHui with my not-v-funny jokes :P (Btw Ollie, I rem you asking me in class why am I always frowning when I attend your classes. Then I gave u the usual puzzled look and someone said im just focusing and absorbing hee.. REMEMBER??? :P)


We went back to look for Caleb and say hi to Krystal(this very very sweet girl with a magnificent voice) After which Ollie sent Krystal and I home.

On the way we had some (should I say discussions? it was mainly one-way..haha) interesting chats. We talked about traditionalism, about the differences between pentacostal and charismatic.. which Ollie said charismatic churches can trace its roots from the pentacostal..they were the 1st wave. O he threw so many names and bombastic words that I was trying really hard to catch what he was saying. Then we moved on to the touchy issues in churches these days on tongues.. healings.. teachings in certain type of churches. Boy that was a handful of topics! He mentioned about how man can never fully understand the concept of GRACE if we are never taught and comprehend SIN and its EFFECTS. I thought it was very true.. its like.. speeding..only when one exceeded the speed limit and crashed one day will he appreciate the beauty of driving within it..(weird analogy.. but u get the idea hur hur hur)

Indeed, only when I recognise my nothingness and let God be God did I realise how filled this life can be. Its beautiful. Thank God how he has provided for me all these days of my life!

O God, thou art my God; early will I seek thee: my soul thirsteth for thee, my flesh longeth for thee in a dry and thirsty land, where no water is;

To see thy power and thy glory, so as I have seen thee in the sanctuary.

Because thy lovingkindness is better than life, my lips shall praise thee.

Thus will I bless thee while I live: I will lift up my hands in thy name.

My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness; and my mouth shall praise thee with joyful lips:

When I remember thee upon my bed, and meditate on thee in the night watches.

Because thou hast been my help, therefore in the shadow of thy wings will I rejoice.

My soul followeth hard after thee: thy right hand upholdeth me.

But those that seek my soul, to destroy it, shall go into the lower parts of the earth.

They shall fall by the sword: they shall be a portion for foxes.

But the king shall rejoice in God; every one that sweareth by him shall glory: but the mouth of them that speak lies shall be stopped.

currently.. i mean NOW! there's a horrible huge green bug stuck in this corner of my room.. n I HATE IT! so scared that it'll crawl out and start flying around.. esp if it flies towards me i'll just freak out. My dad refuse to catch it for me can!! HORRIBLE! :~(

anw..
my day.. was an eventful one. Went to church early in the morning, had BS on marriage..(what a topic u must be thinking..but hey! its a relevant 1.. hee), then 1st time rush through my lunch on a sun for the sake of choir. The session was really awkward. I couldnt understand a word Hannah was saying about pressing your tummy or blah blah blah.(see! cant even remember) so was thinking to myself, I think i still belong to kbox haha bluff myself into thinking i can sing very well but in fact i cant! hee. Went through a short german class so as to pronounce those german letters for this new piece of song, seriously... I dont feel like going back alr.. but i shall pray anw. if i should serve in this area. :P
Then.. pastor gave me a lift to tamp hee was so super glad! dun have to take the long bus ride. I ended up sleeping in the sports hall while waiting for lesson to start. Thank God there were only 4 kids today and very well behaved hee. I gave the 3 boys some girl names. haha.. John(Janice), Samuel(Sharmine), Jerrold (Cheryl.. initially i heard wrongly.. so i contd to tease him haha C:) Was fun playing with these kids hee
Come dinner. Mum chu stunts.. ask if i wan sushi today.Obviously i wanted it! hee
After a long queue at the restaurant just beside Tamp swimming complex, we finally got to eaT! But the food.. was... to me and my parents.. the worst jap food we've come across. not that we've eaten many different stalls but.. yea. i think it's quite bad la. green tea tasteless, the sushi choices were few, not fresh, rice not sticky, too much vinegar, the soup was salty, the 'stone bowl' rice thingy was.. ok nvm, softshell crab at sakae tastes much better, .... etc etc
so .. its not really worth the money and time waiting.
I've been eating alot recently man... I can feel the fat and every single bad cholesterol, lard.. storing in my body, feels heavier, feels more breathless.. :S o man!!

When I see my peers sitting with their family members in church, I become envious of them. When will I see my parents coming to church together with me, sitting beside me, singing hymms with me, small talk during the announcement time and reading God's words with me.. ??
they might be thinking the same way like when will I be around at home watching news with them and stuff like that.. but .. what can be more precious than having a relationship with the One who created you and sustained your lives! There's so much I wan to tell my parents about God but I just cant bring myself to do it. Its ironic how I can tell others about Jesus but find it hardest to break it to my loved ones...

Whenever I see Uncle Victor, it always reminds me of the hug he gave me that 1st day i played soccer in Batam. When I felt kinda disappointed when I kept kicking the ball into my own goal, he gave me a hug! I felt it strange at the moment but subsequently felt very warm deep down. Perhaps cos even my own daddy doesnt hug me(when im so old now) the way he did and i've probably yearned for it. A daddy's hug. It was encouraging lo .. fatherly kindness and love. God has blessed Sarah (the little girl in my church) with such a wonderful earthly dad. Well, looking at my family, I ought not to complain too much la.. at least Im still staying with both my parents, they love me and give me the best.. for that.. I should already thank God and praise Him!

ok.. i dun wan to get all emo.. shall stop here and go n zz.. hee