can you see the things i've done for you... don't you even appreciate...
in return was a reply saying you're too tired to call to spare me that listening ears of yours.. is that what you call friends.. why must it be me who tries to clap harder most of the time.. do you even care... or maybe you just doesnt know how to reciprocate..

and for her..
has this caused me to live in her shadows all these years..
does she know im hurt.. what she has done has left a deep cut...
or is she just terribly annoyed about how i've upset the principles she uphold and all she thinks of is how i've turn from bad to worse.. but the fact is I have not.
I've put myself in her shoes to give her all the time I tried to spare, does she appreciate it..
has she spare a thought for me..
yet all i get from her is cold water.. who doesnt want a word of encouragement, who doesnt want a hug of love..
perhaps she's just too conventional to think of all these.
Yet.. a simple phrase like "Well done" is all I ever need from her... it never happen.

A constant struggle...
I'm yet still an imperfect human.. I have my worries, I face disappointments and upset..
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想到这些。。真的好累。。。有时真想就此了断。。。