A relationship can work only when both hands clap.. so how hard must one hand clap when the other doesnt? Maybe.. just stop trying to clap.
Sometimes I wonder if there's really a pure relationship where the parties involved really care for each other and take the initiative to maintain the relationship, which also means, there's no intended advantage taken of and no other ill intentions. Where both parties are willing to do anything that even requires sacrifices such as to lay down their lives for each other. These heroic acts are seen in dramas, movies, animes and cartoons. Does that really reflect real life incidents?

i must admit that i've taken advantage of some people to do some things, to fill that emptiness that i encounter sometimes, blah blah blah. i guess everyone does at some point in their lives, i take it as reliance. Upon people whom I trust. (maybe this is how people put it nicely across so that they dont make themselves look so bad) But everyone does it just how many are honest and frank enough to admit that they do make use of people around them, even friends make use of each other.

However, i'll do my utmost to be your listening ear, the one who runs beside you when you have to run alone.. but you choose to look for someone else...

why must I always be the one taking the initiative to maintain the relationship? i will be soon drained..

Yet there are also some who maintains their relationships with ease. is that what you call good PR skills?

Am i being too self-centered thinking about how I felt like i've been taken for granted and not about how I've taken others for granted?

Could it be because I'm an only child? My character crafted, my lifestyle, my passion and interest.. they can be so different from others who have siblings that cause me to lead a weird lifestyle and think differently? some truth in it?

there's so much things going on in my mind that i think it has unwittingly causes some unnecessary stress in me... I've been very emotional these days, I wonder why.

Still i'll hold on to his promise that his grace is sufficient for me and I'll seek him and find him if i seek him with all my heart, all my soul, all my strength.
"What other nation is so great as to have their gods near them the way the LORD our God is near us whenever we pray to him?" Deu 4:7