Often we want quick answers and solutions to our problems, big or small.
Often we do not have the patience to wait.

Indeed, we are groomed to live in this maggi-mee generation.

We so miss the point sometimes. The patience that grows out of long delayed answers and events is more often than not, underdeveloped. We miss the big picture of how one's character is moulded and trust is built upon waiting for God's answer.. or even building relational trust in someone whom they can rely on during this period of time.

Yet I know.. waiting can be agonising and soon becomes a frustration.

I've been asking God where do i go from here. With 2.75.. is life sci really for me or am i jus not devoting enough time to study? do I contd to stay in hostel or not? do I change course? what choice do I have? Why am I in life sci even? What do I really want? Where does my interest lie? What does God want... i've been struggling with all these thoughts.. n sometimes they cause me sleepless hours at night and countless stressful tears.

God is good afterall.. Forever.
I've been reminded again and again on different occasions recently about putting my trust in God. Have I been taking things in my hands n putting God aside? Was he ever in the picture of my studies even?
Last sunday's sermon was about God's sovereignty in establishing Davidic kingdom. David waited upon the Lord. His perfect timing and instructions. He did not rush into doing what he has to or wad he wants to, he still waited. And Pastor said God's will and timing are very crucial. Do not rely on our own emotions and feelings (Pro 3:5-6). Indeed, sometimes in life, our emotions and feelings can get ahead of us and cause us to make serious mistakes. Pastor asked do we seek God's will or just asking Him to endorse what we want to do? It daunted on me that most of the time we do the latter because waiting is such a torture. And when we fall, we blame God.When David waited upon the Lord he finally had peace and he doesnt have to run away anymore from Saul. He had a good 7 years with his family. "God's will is always good for us. Don't run ahead of His plan." I think us being anxious to see the revelation of His plan, we make decisions, sometimes wrong and delay that great wonderful and perfect plan.

In silent times, we are vulnerable to wrong assumptions and conclusions about life, about God, and about prayer. In Psalm 13, David wrestled with the problem of unanswered prayer.

It’s a hard psalm that David sang, and it seems to be one of frustration. Yet, in the end, his doubts and fears turned to trust. Why? Because the circumstances of our struggles cannot diminish the character of God and His care for His children. In verse 5, David turned a corner. From his heart he prayed, “But I have trusted in Your mercy; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.”

In the pain and struggle of living without answers, we can always find comfort in our heavenly Father.
-RBC

I've always believed that God has our best interests at heart, if not He wouldnt have created man and continue to sustain man supplying air and water for us. God loves. So I have no other choice to trust in Him who knows me even before I was conceived. Maybe when im left with no choice, I am then left to make a simple but important decision, to trust and obey Him or not. I realise I can always go my way.. twist and turn in life and sometimes end up with bruises all over, worn out and empty. But it is worth it... just because I thought this should be the way and this whoever god is just someone that I think I know I can rely on in troubles... i guess it doesnt really work this way. And going my way can be a little taxing on my fragile heart, mind and body. Human is afterall created to depend on something more, spiritually, on God..that why man continues to search for supernatural being and support even till this modern day! No matter how much mega structures and clones man can come up with, it is still God who wills at the end of the day. Cos no one can accurately predict the future, not even tomorrow.

My struggles and thoughts have may been unnecessary if I've realised this truth earlier. Yet, I must agree that its often easier said than done. To wait upon God, I need patience and trust. Both are difficult to achieve but my own efforts, but by God's grace, may He grant to me that two precious gifts that I may grow stronger and closer to Him. Do pray along with me..