Thursday, May 31, 2007
Perhaps due to the recent A division finals that I watched, made me suddenly think of how we could have won the last IHG badminton finals... I felt i overlooked certain things and seeing things in a very narrow perspective..
it was a pity. I think I owe my team an apology.
There were some misunderstandings, some insensitivity on my side and miscommunication altogether.. what a lousy vice cap I was!
both SH and I felt that we should have strengthen our doubles. but I guess both C and I wanted to play safe, yet at the same time.. put too much stress on the 1st doubles and didnt think of another way to turn the line up around blah blah blah... whatever it is... it was a good lesson learnt for me..
Its over.
Signing off...Tingyu^^
Often we want quick answers and solutions to our problems, big or small.
Often we do not have the patience to wait.
Indeed, we are groomed to live in this maggi-mee generation.
We so miss the point sometimes. The patience that grows out of long delayed answers and events is more often than not, underdeveloped. We miss the big picture of how one's character is moulded and trust is built upon waiting for God's answer.. or even building relational trust in someone whom they can rely on during this period of time.
Yet I know.. waiting can be agonising and soon becomes a frustration.
I've been asking God where do i go from here. With 2.75.. is life sci really for me or am i jus not devoting enough time to study? do I contd to stay in hostel or not? do I change course? what choice do I have? Why am I in life sci even? What do I really want? Where does my interest lie? What does God want... i've been struggling with all these thoughts.. n sometimes they cause me sleepless hours at night and countless stressful tears.
God is good afterall.. Forever.
I've been reminded again and again on different occasions recently about putting my trust in God. Have I been taking things in my hands n putting God aside? Was he ever in the picture of my studies even?
Last sunday's sermon was about God's sovereignty in establishing Davidic kingdom. David waited upon the Lord. His perfect timing and instructions. He did not rush into doing what he has to or wad he wants to, he still waited. And Pastor said God's will and timing are very crucial. Do not rely on our own emotions and feelings (Pro 3:5-6). Indeed, sometimes in life, our emotions and feelings can get ahead of us and cause us to make serious mistakes. Pastor asked do we seek God's will or just asking Him to endorse what we want to do? It daunted on me that most of the time we do the latter because waiting is such a torture. And when we fall, we blame God.When David waited upon the Lord he finally had peace and he doesnt have to run away anymore from Saul. He had a good 7 years with his family. "God's will is always good for us. Don't run ahead of His plan." I think us being anxious to see the revelation of His plan, we make decisions, sometimes wrong and delay that great wonderful and perfect plan.
In silent times, we are vulnerable to wrong assumptions and conclusions about life, about God, and about prayer. In Psalm 13, David wrestled with the problem of unanswered prayer.
It’s a hard psalm that David sang, and it seems to be one of frustration. Yet, in the end, his doubts and fears turned to trust. Why? Because the circumstances of our struggles cannot diminish the character of God and His care for His children. In verse 5, David turned a corner. From his heart he prayed, “But I have trusted in Your mercy; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.”
In the pain and struggle of living without answers, we can always find comfort in our heavenly Father.
-RBC
I've always believed that God has our best interests at heart, if not He wouldnt have created man and continue to sustain man supplying air and water for us. God loves. So I have no other choice to trust in Him who knows me even before I was conceived. Maybe when im left with no choice, I am then left to make a simple but important decision, to trust and obey Him or not. I realise I can always go my way.. twist and turn in life and sometimes end up with bruises all over, worn out and empty. But it is worth it... just because I thought this should be the way and this whoever god is just someone that I think I know I can rely on in troubles... i guess it doesnt really work this way. And going my way can be a little taxing on my fragile heart, mind and body. Human is afterall created to depend on something more, spiritually, on God..that why man continues to search for supernatural being and support even till this modern day! No matter how much mega structures and clones man can come up with, it is still God who wills at the end of the day. Cos no one can accurately predict the future, not even tomorrow.
My struggles and thoughts have may been unnecessary if I've realised this truth earlier. Yet, I must agree that its often easier said than done. To wait upon God, I need patience and trust. Both are difficult to achieve but my own efforts, but by God's grace, may He grant to me that two precious gifts that I may grow stronger and closer to Him. Do pray along with me..
-But those who wait on the LORD
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.-
Isaiah 40 : 31
Signing off...Tingyu^^
Friday, May 25, 2007
| Your Learning Style: Idealistic and Flexible |
You enjoy learning anything that can help others... from making the world more beautiful to saving lives.
You Should Study:
Architecture
Environmental Science
Fashion Design
Forestry
Interior design
International Studies
Literature
Music
Nursing
Restaurant management
Studio Art
Veterinary Medicine |
What Should You Study?how about lab works? .. hm i see a few 'Designs' there.so should i change major!?? hahaha
Signing off...Tingyu^^
| What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You |
You are a giving soul. Way too giving in fact. You often get stuck doing the dirty work that no one else will do.
You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.
You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You're proud of who you are - but you don't broadcast it.
In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return. |
Signing off...Tingyu^^
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
I can now understand why there are some people who can post up to 3, 4 entries per day.. i always wonder.. so much things to write meh! haha
When there's nothing much for me to do at home, I'll just simply sit in front of the com and type.. and type.. and type..
Basically i didnt do anything much today.. just went job hunting through the papers and net. Chat online and pack my room. O gosh.. I finally decided to tidy that stack of rubbish. I can see a THICK layer of dust piling on it~~ haha
Sifting through that JC files and Sem1 notes, I found treasures..
notes from SYFC lessons, tracts, personality test results that i have to pay for, letters and cards friends wrote, old photos..blah blah blah..
I attempted to read those old notes but i've unwittingly lost the interest and patience reading those.. heh. I indulged myself in reminiscence today, looking through those photos and study notes reminded me of how I've grown and the effort i've put in all these years. Be it in studies, relationships and even spirtually.. I thank God for all that have happened, it has shaped me to be who I am today and still moulding :)
Yep.. took one whole day to pack my stuff and its not done! still have to pack my wardrobe tomorrow haha.. alrights better sleep now!
ciaos~
Signing off...Tingyu^^
My son, do not forget my law, But let your heart keep my commands;
For length of days and long life
And peace they will add to you.
Let not mercy and truth forsake you;
Bind them around your neck,
Write them on the tablet of your heart,
And so find favor and high esteem
In the sight of God and man.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
Do not be wise in your own eyes;
Fear the LORD and depart from evil.
It will be health to your flesh,
And strength to your bones.
Honor the LORD with your possessions,
And with the firstfruits of all your increase;
So your barns will be filled with plenty,
And your vats will overflow with new wine.
My son, do not despise the chastening of the LORD,
Nor detest His correction;
For whom the LORD loves He corrects,
Just as a father the son in whom he delights.
Happy is the man who finds wisdom,
And the man who gains understanding;
For her proceeds are better than the profits of silver,
And her gain than fine gold.
She is more precious than rubies,
And all the things you may desire cannot compare with her.
Length of days is in her right hand,
In her left hand riches and honor.
Her ways are ways of pleasantness,
And all her paths are peace.
She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her,
And happy are all who retain her.
The LORD by wisdom founded the earth;
By understanding He established the heavens;
By His knowledge the depths were broken up,
And clouds drop down the dew.
My son, let them not depart from your eyes—
Keep sound wisdom and discretion;
So they will be life to your soul
And grace to your neck.
Then you will walk safely in your way,
And your foot will not stumble.
When you lie down, you will not be afraid;
Yes, you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet.
Do not be afraid of sudden terror,
Nor of trouble from the wicked when it comes;
For the LORD will be your confidence,
And will keep your foot from being caught.
Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due,
When it is in the power of your hand to do so.
Do not say to your neighbor,
“ Go, and come back,
And tomorrow I will give it,”
When you have it with you.
Do not devise evil against your neighbor,
For he dwells by you for safety’s sake.
Do not strive with a man without cause,
If he has done you no harm.
Do not envy the oppressor,
And choose none of his ways;
For the perverse person is an abomination to the LORD,
But His secret counsel is with the upright.
The curse of the LORD is on the house of the wicked,
But He blesses the home of the just.
Surely He scorns the scornful,
But gives grace to the humble.
The wise shall inherit glory,
But shame shall be the legacy of fools.
Words of wisdom.Words from God. I remember vividly the time when I was lost(not literally though lolx), Xiaoyun send me a msg out of the blue.. I tot it was timely and God sent.seriously! haha
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. Prov 3 :5,6
Now here I am quite lost again and this verse came timely again. Lost cause I dunno what I wan to do in the future. Lost because I really dunno why I'm doing life sciences.. time and again i ask myself.. but to no avail.. heh. a M.D is quite way out of the question. too time consuming, too expensive, too taxing. But what can be more satisfying and meaningful than saving lives!? (hmm saving life for eternity?) Lost cos .. hmm there's alot more personal issues la. confidential hee
I'm comforted to see these words of wisdom... telling me and reminding me to cling on tightly to God's wisdom lest I stumble and fall. Let Him be my confidence and guidance... light of the world
Signing off...Tingyu^^
“For you are a holy people to the LORD your God; the LORD your God has chosen you to be a people for Himself, a special treasure above all the peoples on the face of the earth. " Deu 7:6
similar to 1 Peter 2:9!! :D
“Every commandment which I command you today you must be careful to observe, that you may live and multiply, and go in and possess the land of which the LORD swore to your fathers. And you shall remember that the LORD your God led you all the way these forty years in the wilderness, to humble you and test you, to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep His commandments or not. So He humbled you, allowed you to hunger, and fed you with manna which you did not know nor did your fathers know, that He might make you know that man shall not live by bread alone; but man lives by every word that proceeds from the mouth of the LORD. Your garments did not wear out on you, nor did your foot swell these forty years. You should know in your heart that as a man chastens his son, so the LORD your God chastens you.
“Therefore you shall keep the commandments of the LORD your God, to walk in His ways and to fear Him. For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land, a land of brooks of water, of fountains and springs, that flow out of valleys and hills; a land of wheat and barley, of vines and fig trees and pomegranates, a land of olive oil and honey; a land in which you will eat bread without scarcity, in which you will lack nothing; a land whose stones are iron and out of whose hills you can dig copper. When you have eaten and are full, then you shall bless the LORD your God for the good land which He has given you.
"Beware that you do not forget the LORD your God by not keeping His commandments, His judgments, and His statutes which I command you today, " Deutronomy 8 : 1-11
I want to go! to the Land of milk and honey.. where there is complete trust and reliance upon the Lord and then there is work to do.. but no stress I suppose cos everything is reliant on God! Vocation was given right at the beginning during genesis.. and man knows it today.. (the worst thing that can happen to a human being is to feel useless and worthless and do nothing..)
The Land of milk and honey where I can walk on the land that He has given. Just as the garden of Eden. I wan to stay where He is, where there's true joy, true love, true happiness, true peace. Where God has provided everything for His beloved...
In fact, God has granted this land to His people. Those who choose to believe and walk with Him, He then lovingly holds our hands and bring us to this land... Trust and obey God is all He ask, so that we can be blessed.
In the game that the inventor has created, it is only logical and proper to follow his rules to play the game. If not, there'll be chaos and dishonorable behaviors.. Likewise, in the world that He has created.. isnt it logical too to obey His ways to live by to live a righteous and proper life.. so as to enjoy our lives. our game. He has called us to be blessed.
Signing off...Tingyu^^
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
sigh. my command of english is deteriorating.. pardon me. har
Signing off...Tingyu^^
Monday, May 21, 2007
A relationship can work only when both hands clap.. so how hard must one hand clap when the other doesnt? Maybe.. just stop trying to clap.
Sometimes I wonder if there's really a pure relationship where the parties involved really care for each other and take the initiative to maintain the relationship, which also means, there's no intended advantage taken of and no other ill intentions. Where both parties are willing to do anything that even requires sacrifices such as to lay down their lives for each other. These heroic acts are seen in dramas, movies, animes and cartoons. Does that really reflect real life incidents?
i must admit that i've taken advantage of some people to do some things, to fill that emptiness that i encounter sometimes, blah blah blah. i guess everyone does at some point in their lives, i take it as reliance. Upon people whom I trust. (maybe this is how people put it nicely across so that they dont make themselves look so bad) But everyone does it just how many are honest and frank enough to admit that they do make use of people around them, even friends make use of each other.
However, i'll do my utmost to be your listening ear, the one who runs beside you when you have to run alone.. but you choose to look for someone else...
why must I always be the one taking the initiative to maintain the relationship? i will be soon drained..
Yet there are also some who maintains their relationships with ease. is that what you call good PR skills?
Am i being too self-centered thinking about how I felt like i've been taken for granted and not about how I've taken others for granted?
Could it be because I'm an only child? My character crafted, my lifestyle, my passion and interest.. they can be so different from others who have siblings that cause me to lead a weird lifestyle and think differently? some truth in it?
there's so much things going on in my mind that i think it has unwittingly causes some unnecessary stress in me... I've been very emotional these days, I wonder why.
Still i'll hold on to his promise that his grace is sufficient for me and I'll seek him and find him if i seek him with all my heart, all my soul, all my strength.
"What other nation is so great as to have their gods near them the way the LORD our God is near us whenever we pray to him?" Deu 4:7
Signing off...Tingyu^^
Saturday, May 19, 2007
| You are a Brainy Girl! |
Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either! |
Signing off...Tingyu^^
Friday, May 18, 2007
thinking hard about what chia said yesterday..
depth vs breadth.
some people wants depth but doesnt wan to put in the effort. speaks of me.
i get so bored with readings.
nothing can really sustain my interest for a very long time so does it mean im cut out for breadth than depth?
As we get older, we'll realise we can never have everything that we want.
Choose and prioritize.
I think I'm too greedy to even want to choose. Or lazy perhaps to attempt to find out what I really like. I'm almost always following the crowd.. because swimming against the current is tough.
what happen to that long lasting and intimate relationship with my dear Lord God.. am I drifting away cos the whole money issue starts to pressure... the struggle is real. When God draws Jacob nearer to Him, He broke one of Jacob's limb.....
Signing off...Tingyu^^
badminton..
Signing off...Tingyu^^
有句话想对你说...
Sa Rang Hae Yo Means I Love You
代表着我 离不开你
每分每秒 每一个声音
只有你撒娇 会让我微笑
Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说
I Will Love You And Forever More
我答应 Baby You Will See
每一个我都属于你....
Signing off...Tingyu^^
Thursday, May 17, 2007
hi people..
i've decided to blog... after a long long time and after many people telling me to blog..i guess this entry will be rather long..bear with me hahaalrights, just some updates about my life currently.
:: Present ::
having my holidays... still looking for jobs so far.have been slacking my days away.. either in front of my laptop, or rolling on my bed, in front of the tv.. i've also been playing badminton, wish to get back at least get a little fitter than the nua sai now.. haha well, in fact sports make me feel healthier and fresher hee. have been attending church as regular as I can.. i must confess. heh sometimes i just cant get up on sun morning. but i'll still attend bible classes which are held after service. :D so for those who are concerned if im still spiritually well... YES i suppose.. :D i hope you are too! Draw close to God! :D:: Past ::
Sem 2 started and ended like a 100m dash... it was so fast that I hardly had the time to write my blog! (haha laziness incorporated :P)Dec - IHG training, DP practicesJan - IHG starts, DP practicesFeb - DP practices, rehearsals, DANCE PRODUCTION..lab reports..Mar - work on my projects, CAs after CAs, preparation for Final Term Exams, thai music practices and performancesApr - preparation, revisions and clarifications, still CAs, thai music practices and performances finally the Exam..woot.. its packed!There's too many things to be written down so i'll just pick some important events that impacted me...=of IHG - Inter Hall Games=
Took part in Badminton, Softball and Volleyball.. of which Badminton taught me the most, Softball was refreshing and enjoyable, Volleyball was fine..For badminton, I didnt learn much about skills but in terms of managing people and a team. The dynamics of a hall team is very different from that of JC/sec sch. University team is very different too. They differ from the way they functions, the way they have to be managed and controlled.. Team mates are no longer those that train with you day in day out, eats and jokes after trainings. People come from all sorts of backgrounds, carrying many other commitments and goals they want to achieve. It has become all so individualistic. Sometimes I wonder why do I have to fight so hard when there are others who cannot really be bothered. However, I was encouraged too to see some putting in the extra effort, giving the extra support, some 心有预而力不足.. If not for God, if not for that 雪中送炭 i would have probably gave up long time ago.For Softball, every hit was remarkable. every goal we scored was miraculous. For novices, getting into the 2nd round is already a problem.. yet not only did we get through the 2nd round, we defeated our strong opponent during semis and entered finals. lolx. I must say our winnings were rather dramatic and comical. I must also admit that our team was a humble one, nothing to lose. perhaps that was why it kept us united and going. Never-say-die attitude.Volleyball requires alot of team cooperation on the courts which i think i lack so it shall just stay as a leisure game.. not competitive ba...=of Eusoff DP - Dance Production=
picked up dance during the production. find it fun, kinda like it. didnt wan to join them at first but when I see my friends in dance and sounds quite happening. I gianed and decided to call Ruisheng... haha after all his efforts telling me how wonderful it is. He was right afterall. I didnt regret joining DP.was in Freda's dance..mainly hip hop i suppose. initially i was shy and felt awkward dancing with people that I dont know. (Come on, I felt odd even when I was with my old childhood friends) Without any dance background, i really had a hard time learning the steps. Plus most of them already master most of what Freda taught them initially. I guess she had a difficult time teaching me as well.. hehAt the end of the day, I learnt and mastered most of the steps. Learnt how to be confident and have the just-do-it attitude cos its still a responsibility and commitment. (it helped to booast my confidence level when I had my project presentation and thai music performances:) ) I danced and DP's over. There were still mistakes here and there but i was glad it was over haha.=of School=
Life sciences.. its really no joke. There's just so much to read and memorise. (not that other majors do not require..heh) I believed this semester had been better than the last one. At least I tried to keep up with my work. Amidst the hectic schedule due to IHG, dance, some other duties, it was God's grace that I still understand my work. Still able to hand up my assignments on time, still able to do relatively good for my reports. I realised how much more I could have done last sem if I hadnt play ping pong every night, if I hadn't gone for supper every night, if I hadn't played so much basically.. den my CAP wouldnt be 2.7.. heh what a wake up call! Hard lesson learnt.. So I am rather satisfied with the way I am this semester.. at least i was consistent.. focused more, played less.. not much time to play anyway.This sem like I said, was a rush. I kinda enojyed this semester's modules though compared to last sem. Perhaps that's also the reason why I had an easier time. My timetable was better this sem.. at least I didnt have to wake at at 730am for 8am's lesson! har! More labwork this sem but i enjoyed them hee.. at least dont have to stay in that hot, stuffy chem lab!! its all air-conditioned this time.. heh heh. The lectures of one of my modules clash with my core labwork, so I only attended 3 of that lectures.. had a difficult time catching up. Intro to interactive media, sounds interesting hur.. the project was la.. but not the final paper (to me..) hope it'll still turn out fine..wrote blueberry instead of blackberry in my essay on interactive products/services.. rox.. har..Took this thai music module.. I've never had a better exam.. performances as CAs and final yr paper takes up only 30%. 20% listening and 10% written. tutorials all about learning traditional thai instruments and playing them, preparing for our graded performances. that's like how cool!!! haha I enjoyed it totally man.. THIS MODULE IS HIGHLY RECOMMENDED FOR THOSE WHO LIKES MUSIC HEE.. SE3210... :Dmy last min preparation for my exams were alright too.. had 2 open book exams and 2 very xiong memorising modules.. exam dates very well spread out.. was worried for my CAP actually.. so I was really quite stressed at some point in time.=of Thai Music=
This module was one of those that I really enjoyed.Very hands on, rich in foreign culture. Its a small class, only 8 students and the thai lecturer, Acaan Koong. We grew very close and had alot of fun. Our graded performances not only gave us a chance to present what we have learnt, it also gave us a chance to perform before people that most people do not get to (the politicians and the Thai Princess). One of our performances were held at the Asian Civilisation museum. There was a family day carnival going on that day and the whole class had so much fun looking around the stalls, fooling around, had ice cream and later a sumptuous Thai dinner! It reminded me of primary school excursion... hee.=of Ease US OFF Choc fondue party - exams blessings=
One of the events that ECF held this semester was the fondue party. It all started with the garage idea Kayan and I raised and Shuyi suggested fondue all of the sudden(cos eusoffians love food?). We decided not to impose any messages on them even though it was near Easter but to bless these people amidst the stressful exam period. And it was good. God's hands were obviously upon it and many people came.This event left a deep impression in my heart. God taught me how important it is to lean not upon our own understanding but seek first His kingdom and understanding. Learn how to pray and commit all plans unto His hands. The idea of fondue was impromptu. Planning took us jus a few days. Assigning of jobs done in a matter of minutes. We got all the things we needed. Our friends, brothers and sisters in Christ blessed us with extra equipments, food, etc. Everything we needed were provided, it was more than enough. We had alot more food left after that, only thing is that chocolate wasnt enough. Those who signed up came, those who didnt came too.. at the end of the day we had more than the number of people we expected when only a little more than half of the number we expected signed up. How cool is that! :D I hope those who came were truly blessed.. I really enjoyed myself that night even though it was tiring.
::Reflections::
By God's grace, I have spent my 2nd semester wiser than what I did during my 1st semester. I remember how I prayed and asked God to lead my 2nd semester. Indeed, He didnt fail me. Edifying me and moulding me in all possible circumstances. I need to continue to live by His grace so as to 出污泥而不染... "For what great nation is there that has a God so near to it, as the Lord our God is to us, for whatever reason we may call upon Him?" Deu 4:7Labels: reflections
Signing off...Tingyu^^
picked up dance during the production. find it fun, kinda like it. didnt wan to join them at first but when I see my friends in dance and sounds quite happening. I gianed and decided to call Ruisheng... haha after all his efforts telling me how wonderful it is. He was right afterall. I didnt regret joining DP.
